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A Shadowhunter falls in love only once, and for Maryse Trueblood, that love happened quite young. Unfortunately for her, it wasn’t with the man her mother wanted her to. In her mind, her love was leagues better. Lucian Graymark was kind and compassionate. He truly saw her. Unlike Robert Lightwood, who couldn’t see much past himself.
So she ignored her family’s wishes and loved Lucian with everything she had. She even followed him to the Circle. Despite how much she loved him, that one action caused everything to change. Valentine Morgenstern got so into her mind, his ideals became her own. So much so that when Luke was attacked and changed, she betrayed him.
No matter the greatness of her love for Lucian, she believed the things Valentine spewed. The vile things he said about how Lucian was no longer himself. She believed the Circle leader was in just as much pain at his loss. Luke was, after all, his parabatai . If one half of someone’s soul knew that they were now a monster, then of course she believed him.
No matter what beliefs she had, she was heartbroken. She had lost the only man she would ever love. She felt that loss like a physical piece of herself. She knew she would never love again, and finally agreed with her mother’s insistent nagging to do the one thing she had always wanted Maryse to do. Marry Robert Lightwood.
It was the last thing she wanted to do, but she knew that she truly had no other options. She just hoped that it would put her life in the right direction. Only, days before the wedding, her world came crashing down on her once more instead.
She was pregnant. With Lucian’s child. At one point, this would have been the greatest news she could have ever received. She would have been shouting it from the rooftops. Now though, it was something that she could never tell anyone. Something that could never, ever get out.
In fact, for a moment, she contemplated not even carrying it to term. It only took one thought of Lucian’s warm eyes and soft smile for her to change her mind. She already loved this baby more than anything. She may never have Lucian again, but she had his child. Even if she was the only one who would ever know.