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CA: hey kar
CG: HI ERIDAN.
CA: you seem to be feeling better
CA: less angry
CA: for you
CG: DO YOU WANT ME TO YELL AT YOU THEN?
CA: no
CA: im glad you arent angry and shouty
CG: GOOD, I'M TOO FUCKING EXHAUSTED FOR THAT.
CA: im glad youre feelin better
CG: UH THANKS I GUESS.
CA: so wwhats up
CG: THE USUAL.
CA: if it wwas the usual youd be far angrier than you are right noww
CA: did something good happen
CG: WELL EVERYBODY GAVE ME A GODDAMN BREAK FOR ONCE INSTEAD OF BEING COMPLETE ASSES TO ME EVERY FIVE MINUTES.
CG: BUT NOTHING OTHER THAN THAT REALLY.
CA: thats good
CA: kar i dont say this enough but
CA: your a good friend
CA: and a great leader
CG: WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU GETTING SENTIMENTAL?
CA: its just
CA: i dont say it enough
CA: or at least i wwont
CG: WELL YOU'RE A GOOD FRIEND TOO, ERIDAN.
CA: thats not true and you knoww it
CG: OKAY, SOMETHING'S UP WITH YOU.
CG: WHAT'S WRONG?
CA: look im from a different timeline
CA: and
CA: evverything wwent wwrong for me
CA: so just
CA: givve me this moment
CA: wwhere you dont hate my guts okay
CG: A LOT OF SHIT GOES WRONG FOR YOU HERE TOO.
CG: WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT, I DON'T HATE YOU.
CA: the you in my timeline does
CA: i messed up kar
CA: i messed up big time
CG: WELL THEN THE ME IN YOUR TIMELINE IS AN ASSHOLE AND AN IDIOT, BECAUSE I SHOULDN'T HATE YOU.
CA: and i dont think i can make up for it
CG: WHAT'D YOU DO?
CA: a lot of things
CA: i dont wwant to get into it
CA: im a less than suisidal mod right noww and id rather keep it that wway
CA: if you dont mind
CG: OH GOD.
CG: DON'T
CG: DON'T SAY SHIT LIKE THAT.
CA: im not going to kill myself relax
CG: OKAY GOOD.
CA: but ill do evverything in betwween
CA: fuck i wwas in a better mood too
CG: IF YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT SELF HARM, DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE.
CA: i say better because im nevver in a good mood
CA: i dersever it kar
CA: i do
CA: right along this scar where kan killed me
CA: deeper and deeper
CG: OH NO
CG: OH NO
CA: so i fucking remember
CG: NONONONONONO
CA: im so thin kar
CA: i dont eat
CG: WHY WOULD KANAYA KILL YOU?
CG: ERIDAN PLEASE
CG: STOP SAYING THAT.
CA: i havvent seen anyone in swweeps
CG: LEAVE YOUR BUBBLE.
CA: im not in my bubble
CG: WHERE ARE YOU?
CA: dream bubbles are too good for me kar
CA: i surrender to the horrorterrors
CG: NO.
CG: PLEASE DON'T.
CA: im deep wwithin the bowwels of this fucking asteroid
CA: i havve to hide
CA: i dont wwant to die
CA: but if any of you find me
CG: NO, I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I WOULD KILL YOU.
CA: its because of my title you knoww
CA: prince of hope
CA: i csnt givve up hope that you wwill forgivve me
CA: i physically cant givve up hope
CG: IF IT'S ANY COMPENSATION, KARKAT FROM THIS TIMELINE FORGIVES YOU.
CA: i cant kill myself
CA: its torture kar
CA: you wwouldnt forgivve me if you kneww wwhat i did
CG: ERIDAN PLEASE
CA: i knoww you wwouldnt
CG: DON'T GIVE UP HOPE.
CG: <3
CA: i shouldnt havve told you
CG: IT HURTS KNOWING WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH.
CA: i could havve pretended for just a little wwhile
CA: that evverything wwas okay
CG: ARE YOU PAYING ANY FUCKING ATTENTION?
CA: but i dont deservve that
CG: ERIDAN SHUT UP FOR ONE FUCKING MINUTE.
CA: i dont koww if i can do it anymore kar
CG: ERIDAN
CG: LISTEN TO ME.
CG: I'M FLUSHED FOR YOU.
CG: I DOUBT ALTERNATE TIMELINE ME COULD KILL YOU.
CA: you dont fucking get it
CG: THEN TELL ME.
CA: i wwont
CG: FINE.
CA: i cant stand anymore of you wwanting to kill me
CA: i dont knoww wwhat i wwould do
CG: I WON'T WANT TO KILL YOU.
CG: I PROMISE.
CA: you dont knoww that
CG: NO MATTER HOW BAD.
CG: I WON'T HATE YOU.
CA: you cant keep that promise
CG: I BOTH CAN AND WILL.
CA: look its okay im going to be fine
CA: you havve your owwn eridan
CA: and wwhile i cant technically kill myself
CA: i can refuse to eat
CG: NO PLEASE STOP.
CA: and im so thin kar
CG: PLEASE DON'T DO THIS.
CG: PLEASE.
CA: its better this wway
CA: i dont wwant you to kill me kar but you wwill
CA: this you will
CG: I WON'T BELIEVE IT.
CG: I FUCKING WON'T.
CG: I REFUSE TO.
CA: keep that thought wwith you
CA: go savve the me that hasnt done all this yet
CA: you can savve me kar
CG: I WANT TO.
CA: but your me
CA: your timelines me
CA: im already gone kar
CG: CAN'T I SAVE BOTH?
CA: i dont think so
CA: i think
CA: i think i might let you kill me
CG: NONONONONONO
CG: NO
CA: i got godtier you knoww
CA: it wwould be a justified death
CA: then i wwouldnt go back to the dreambubbles
CA: id be gone
CG: SHUT UP JUST SHUT UP ABOUT YOU DYING I DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT THAT SHIT.
CG: JUST
CG: SHUT UP
CA: and maybe itd make you happy
CA: right
CG: NO.
CA: to givve you wwhat you wwant
CG: I CAN'T LISTEN TO THIS.
CG: I'M GOING TO BE SICK.
CA: im sorry for doing this to you
CA: i wwanted to say goodbye
CG: OKAY.
CA: to a kar that might givve a damn
CG: GOODBYE ERIDAN.
CG: <3
CA: goodbye karkat
CA: <3
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CA: im so, so sorry