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Seo Jiwoo is scared. It's terrifying falling in love, more so when he can't control it. He spent his life all alone, until his mentor came and the world began to show him how beautiful life is. He has friends now— who he thinks of as family.
His mentor is the literal world rank awakened, how awesome is that? (Although he doesn't know what that entails at first but well.)
Falling in love is just.. complicated than he thought it would be. The rising heartbeat and the thoughts he has whenever he sees and think of Sucheon is weird.
He wants to keep him close and make sure he never ever leave him. He doesn't want him to look at other person with the same way Jiwoo look at him.
He loves him and it's driving him crazy.
It started out like this, a simple message from Sucheon.
Kang Sucheon : that vatore guy is asking about curtin again. it's seriously annoying.
Seo Jiwoo : ( ；∀；)
Seo Jiwoo : sorry for that, I can't really do anything about it. ┐(´ー｀)┌
Kang Sucheon : whatever, that curtin guy better come.
Seo Jiwoo : he will! don't worry <(￣︶￣)>
Kang Sucheon : I'm not worried. this is just for baekdu.
Jiwoo smile at that. Putting his phone aside and went back to training.
It seems Kang Sucheon really cares for the organization. But Jiwoo supposed it's because he's the heir.
It was just after the attack on World Awakened Academy.
It was eventful. Jiwoo is glad that his friends are safe and doesn't have a life threatening injuries. It was shocking to find out that the two of the professors are traitors and part of the infamous criminals organization called Frame.
The attacks was terrifying. It was worse than fighting the brothers. The sheer pressure, the weighing feeling in his heart. The adrenaline rush he felt from it was oddly euphoric.
He could have died, again. And not just him, the students, his friends— his family. He's glad Kayden and Curtin came, but he would have preferred his identity as an apprentice to Kayden remains a secret.
He's not ashamed or anything, why would he? Kayden's the best thing ever happened to him.
It just... he knows how much danger he has to face now, of course he does. He almost couldn't use his awakened powers ever again because of it, if not for Curtin healing his core, his life as an awakened would have ended long ago. Now the secret is out, the amount of dangers he has now began to triple.
Ding!
The sound of his phone's notification going off stop his thoughts from going into a spiral of madness.
He grab it and open up to see that it comes from the messager app. He blink his eyes at who it came from, making sure he isn't hallucinating.
Kang Sucheon : ik you have curtin healing you, but.
Kang Sucheon : get well soon.
Kang Sucheon : so you can spar with me.
Jiwoo huffed out a laugh.
"This guy really...," he mutters, shaking his head. Doesn't he has injuries from his duel with one of the top ten students? Saying he should get well soon when Sucheon is the one who still have fresh wounds that is healing from the fighting.
He smiles as he responds to the messages.
Seo Jiwoo : you too (っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ
Seo Jiwoo : let's spar sometimes !!
Kang Sucheon : yeah yeah whatever. bye.
Jiwoo laughs, his friends are so ridiculous sometimes. But gosh, what he would do to have all of this forever.
"Never leave me," the voice demand, breath stuttering.
"If you do leave me, I will find you and make sure you regret ever leaving me behind." Their hands that were wrapped around the person's neck they are talking to, shakes uncontrollably.
The person's hand come up to caress the other's cheeks in response.
"Okay, my love."
Kang Sucheon : you better be alright now.
Seo Jiwoo : i am ( ╹▽╹ ) ! curtin heal me up repeatly, so i'm all alright.
Kang Sucheon : that's good ig. spar at mine this time ?
Seo Jiwoo : oh that's sounds good !! when ?
Kang Sucheon : tomorrow. I will have my uncle get you to baekdu's training centre.
"Kid, why are you smiling like that?"
Jiwoo startled by the question, almost drop his phone. He sheepishly turn around and smile brightly at his mentor.
"Oh, it's just Sucheon asking me for a spar tomorrow." He clarify, "At his, I mean."
Kayden raise his left eyebrow at that, questions after questions race through his mind. He settles for this. "Since when you've been talking to him? Doesn't he hates you?"
Jiwoo tilted his head in confusion, "Since he asked for my number about Vatore?" Then he seems to think about his next words before saying, "He's nice if you don't get in his nerves I guess..?"
Curtin then interrupted, "It's just a spar, right? Don't get too intense, I'm not healing you again."
"Alright!"
They swaps blow after blow, Sucheon use his ability to try and suffocate Jiwoo before getting hit on his side, the other using his speed ability.
Both of them are panting, Sucheon glare at him before nodding his head and Jiwoo nod back at him, automatically stopping the match. They have been at this for over an hour now, trying to draw out the fight longer to see how good each other's endurance are. If it was a real fight it would have been over faster, but since it was just a spar, they limit their ability as to not injures the other too much.
"That was fun!" Jiwoo chirped, hand going to swipe the blood from his lips.
Sucheon doesn't answer, instead he went over to the nearest snacks/drink machines and buy something.
"Here." He tossed Jiwoo a bottle of water and protein bar.
Jiwoo lips curled up into a pleased smile.
This is good, isn't it? Being friends with Sucheon is nice. Although he never confirmed that they are friends, he could see that they are, no matter how much Sucheon deny it.
He watch as Sucheon use a towel to swipe of his sweat. The way his eyes seems to scan the room for anyone other than them, his lips tilted a little as if wanting to smile before disappearing.
Jiwoo feel like his heart beat a little more faster than it should be and he thinks this isn't just from the adrenaline.
It was night, Jiwoo is already asleep before he was woken up by his phone.
He could see the flash of numbers before realizing it was a call from Sucheon.
Why would he...?
His hand hover before picking up the call. He could hear harsh breathing and a sob.
"Uncle–," Sucheon said, voice shaking before abruptly cutting off his sentence.
"Are you okay?" Jiwoo asked, mind running through about what could happen. A nightmare perhaps..? He knows their family isn't what family should be like (not that he knows exactly what family is like, growing up was hard, his father never seems to care about him enough and his mother is busy with her works that it seems like she doesn't care sometimes).
"Uh?" Sucheon seems confused before speaking up again, voice seems to be clear of what happens just a few seconds ago, "I think this is a wrong number, sorry for calling in the middle of the night."
"Wait– this is Seo Jiwoo. Do you want uh, to talk?" Jiwoo panicked before taking a deep breath. "About anything, you don't have to talk about what happened. We could just talk, as a friend."
Sucheon is silent from the other side of the phone.
"...okay."
"Great! Do you like cats? Any favorite animals?" Jiwoo immediately launch off to talk about how cute cats is and he laughs when Sucheon said he doesn't mind dogs much, because that it just so him.
It was easy, their banter.
Jiwoo smile every time he sees Sucheon, of course he is that way with everyone but for him, there are possessive and obsessive thoughts that accompany him as he look at Sucheon.
He wants to break the other's legs, want to choke his neck and want to know how cute or handsome the other would look like, crying.
It's strange for him to be thinking of such, morbid thing. But it makes him feel so nice, he couldn't even feel guilty for his thoughts.
He want to mess him up so bad.
"Life is hard."
Jiwoo look to the side, they are looking at the stars, admiring how beautiful it is in the night sky before Sucheon speak up.
"It was horrible, growing up. I have to endure harsh training and if I mess up anything, I would get harsh slap, or a beating depending on their mood." He continues, gaze meeting Jiwoo's. "That's why I hated you. I envied the fact that you never have to go through that."
Jiwoo hands clenched into fist. Knowing about this out loud seems unbelievable. It made him want to smother Sucheon with kisses, want to hold his hand and hugged him tight so he wouldn't, couldn't, leave.
But he can't, because they are not anything and even loving him seems so wrong. Because Jiwoo's love want to lock him into his heart and keep him safe forever, from his family even though he knows the people that hurt Sucheon are already dead.
(Kayden think he's slicked like that. Think Jiwoo would hate him for doing so even when Jiwoo plead him not to.
That time, Jiwoo doesn't want him to kill, in front of him that is. He wouldn't care if Kayden kill anyone, as long he didn't do it in front of him.)
The silence seems to stretch before Sucheon speaks up again. "But then, you seems so melancholy sometimes. You look at your friends as if they would disappear. And that made me think, what about you? What's your story?"
Jiwoo blink at him, letting out a chuckle. "I was nothing. Wasn't worth anyone's time. I resent my parents, even though I know they were just trying to keep me safe but at the time, all I needed was their attention." His eyes dropped to his hands, "It would have been okay, not having friends. As long as I have my parents to rely on and yet, I never see them unless it was something important."
"My mother is happy when she sees me, but all I could think was 'why?' Selfish, aren't I?"
His hands is warm as Sucheon take it, holding both of them. "No, no you are not."
Sucheon thinks falling in love with Seo Jiwoo is easy. He was like a breath of fresh air in his suffocating life. He is easy-going and never push him to talk about his life, never care that he comes from an organization with terrifying and albeit— ruined reputation. He seems content to just watch Sucheon.
And maybe that's why Sucheon feel at ease with him, they could just watch what the other's doing, never having to open up unless they want to. Their sparring was exhilarating, Sucheon want to surpass him so he could keep the other safe. It was good, the way they both are.
Kang Sucheon is in love.
Kang Sucheon look at him fondly and take his right hand, he bowed a little and their eyes meet as he looks up.
He could see the moment Jiwoo's eyes widen shakily, as if afraid of the possibility of anything like this happening. He wants to rip that thoughts out of his mind, wants him to know that all he ever wants is him, that he would fight the gods that left them on their own suffering— when they cried and beg for it to stop, for someone to hug and cherish them— for him.
His breath hovers Jiwoo's fingers before he kissed his bruised knuckles one by one, lips soft and tender.
"Sucheon–?" Jiwoo questioned, seeing what happened before him, but still couldn't comprehend it.
Sucheon stop, he straighten up and look directly into Jiwoo's eyes. He could see the disbelief painting over his face, eyes shakes with vulnerability. He intertwined their hands together.
"Seo Jiwoo. I am not good with words— you know this. My actions speak for themselves but today, I tell you this." He takes a deep breath. "I am in love with you."
Jiwoo let out a startled laugh, his hand tightened around Sucheon's. "That is...why?"
"I love you. Is that so hard to believe? That I want you all to myself and to make sure you never leave me? That I want every part of you?" He let go of his hand and cupped his face. Their face is so close that their breath mingle with each other's, "I want you to be mine, Jiwoo."
Jiwoo lips curled up into a smile. Eyes crinkle before closing and he could see him taking a deep breath, preparing himself.
"I'm yours."
The fact that Sucheon know this, know that he knows their feelings are mutual and yet, the relief that flooded through him is so much that it makes him breath out shakily.
His eyes lock into those lips, eyes looking up to Jiwoo's eyes before looking down again. "May I kiss you?"
Jiwoo doesn't respond, but he bring them impossibly closer and his hands find their way into Sucheon's black hair.
Their lips meet, one soft and the other a little rough before they comprehend the taste of each other as their tongue meet. Sucheon explore the entirety of his lover's mouth (and isn't that what they are now? lovers).
He taste sweet and bitter like the tea he loves to drink. It feels so good, so sinful, so lovely to be kissing him. His soul feels like are reaching out to the other, the feeling of completenesss.
His hands that cupped Jiwoo's face find their ways into holding the other's waist. He can feel his hands tightened possessively. And gosh, if he isn't kissing him at the moment, he knows his mind will think all of the things he would do to make sure the other never escape him.
Perhaps it's wrong, wanting to lock him up. Wanting to injures him so the scars would be some kind of marks from him. But he can't do that, that would hinder his lover, there are so many enemies that want to hurt both of them combine.
So he would settle for less, find him something like necklace or bracelet that couldn't easily shatters as a sign that he is his. Of course, it couldn't be just anything, there would be some kind of emergency button to it, a tracker too. Sucheon doesn't want him to be broken down into pieces again, one time was enough.
He squeeze Jiwoo's waist before letting go of his lips.
Lee Subin could see the moment Kang Sucheon's eyes seem to soften as he glance at Jiwoo, the way Seo Jiwoo seems to perk up at the feeling of the gaze and the look of adoration he gave to him in respond.
"Oh."
She is lost at word, for the first time in ever. To know that her friend (dare she say— best friend, brother even), likes someone and that someone seems to likes him back, someone whose reputation are in shambles.
Someone who has had hurt her friend before but, she knows him better now, know that if he really likes Jiwoo, she would probably be okay with it. Their friends too.
Jisuk, that guy seems to know something isn't right. Or more like some pieces are missing.
(She couldn't believe it, that she is close with him, would be talking and having the same thoughts together.
It's all thanks to Jiwoo, of course. After he came, things seem to be coming together. She loves him, platonically that is, so much. She wouldn't know what to do if he dies, if any of her friends dies.
She thinks she would go crazy from the loss.)
Wooin glance back and forward between the two, sensing something before his lips curled up into a smile, nodding, satisfied with what he finds.
Subin smile before shaking her head and letting the thoughts go, it would be for the best if she doesn't interfere and let them both tell them anything they want to.
Kang Sucheon let out a shaky breath, his hands wandering around Jiwoo's naked body. He could feel the other's teeth graze his neck, both of his hands grip Sucheon's hair tightly.
"I want to mark you." Jiwoo whisper to him, "I want to lock you up so you would only ever loves me. I want to gouge other people's eyes out so they wouldn't ever see you the same way I do."
Sucheon feel his heart light up in joy, to know his lover loves him like that makes him feel happy. He is even more hard after hearing that.
He throws Jiwoo into the bed and follow suit after.
Like this, he could see how affected his lover are, the way he flushed red from his ears to his chest.
"Ah, it's good to know I'm not the only that feels like that, my dear." He smirk before he bit his neck, hard enough to draw blood. Jiwoo whimpers at the feeling, his hands tugging Sucheon's hair.
He lick the blood off before marking other places, both with his hands and mouth. Jiwoo is the perfect picture of debauchery, and Sucheon only has two fingers in his hole.
It feels heavenly to breach into the other's most intimate place. He pours his heart out as he continues their paces. How much he loves Jiwoo, how much he wants him.
The morning after, in Sucheon's bed, their bodies are full of marks that you would think they go through a fight.
Sucheon smiles before he kiss Jiwoo's forehead and go back to sleep.
"I love you, so much it hurts." Jiwoo sobs out, their foreheads touching, tears running down their cheeks.
Their kisses are harsh, teeth clacking and clashing with each other's, both are desperate for touch, the starved touch people that they are.
The way they hugged each other so tight that it would have broke non-awakened people body.
Sometimes, Jiwoo hates the world for making them go through such hard times. If he ever meet fate he would punch them in the face.
But sometimes, he is so glad because if not for it, they would never have met.
It still doesn't erase their emotional scars though.
It still amazes Jiwoo seeing the way Sucheon's ability works. The way his eyes turn into the the color violet.
His hand pat his necklace, out for the world to see on his chest. The rose quartz matching Jiwoo's appearance. He feels giddy to know Sucheon loves to spoils him and want to show him to the world if he was given the chance to.
It makes him feel lighter to know they loves each other so much that they want to lock each other up. Fucked up maybe, but it's exciting.
Seo Jiwoo wouldn't change what they have for anything in the world.
(He doesn't think they would if threatened anyways, with how possessive they are with each other, they would kill the person for suggesting such a thing.)
They are fucked up that way, but god, how perfect they are for each other.