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"Are you sure a kiss is all you want? We can take it further if you'd like."
The sentiment was sweet but unnecessary, Nirei thought.
The kiss had been enough; it had to be. And it was, at least, the first time.
He sighed, trying not to think about how many times had passed since their first kiss. Trying not to wonder why the other never stopped suggesting going further.
Yet he did. Of course, he did. Every time.
"We could, you know." Suo offered. "We could go all the way. You can use me, Nirei."
The thought was tempting. More than that. It was enticing. It was the most erotic thing the freckled teen could imagine, and lately, it's been the only thing on his mind.
But Suo was his friend, and he didn't do this sort of thing. That much was obvious. So why did he keep offering?
He wondered as the heat of Suo's mouth and tongue moved down his cock, if maybe there was more to the situation. The offer was always made, and it was always rejected. However, Nirei's resolve was slowly crumbling.
Crumbling when Suo was using his hands, and his tongue, and his throat.
Crumbling when Nirei's mind was so full of nothing but Suo and pleasure.
Pleasure built in his belly and his balls and radiated through his limbs, making him gasp, sigh, and cry out.
It was not the first time. And he doubted it would be the last.
Nirei's body shuddered, then relaxed, but the other stayed. When it was over, Suo didn't move. He waited until he felt Nirei's fingers in his hair before pulling away.
Suo moved slowly, letting Nirei's cock slide from his mouth. His tongue flicked over the sensitive tip, and he smiled as the other moaned softly.
"Are you sure I can't convince you to go further?" His deep voice sent shivers down Nirei's spine.
The blonde hesitated, uncertainty evident in his voice, "Why do you keep asking?"
Suo's gaze betrayed a sense of longing. The air felt charged with unspoken emotions, leaving them both on edge.
"I think about it. All the time."
Nirei was trying hard not to lose his mind. "You can't..."
"I can. I know you'd never do it on your own. And I'm okay with that. So I figure the next best thing is to make sure you're taken care of."
"By asking me to have sex with you?"
"Exactly," Suo said, his lone eye dark and full of something Nirei couldn't understand.
"Is that what this is? Taking care of me?"
"Yes." The brunette leaned closer, gently tucking a stray strand of hair behind the other's ear.
Nirei was silent, watching his face, trying to read his expression. "What do you want, Suo?" He asked softly.
"I told you."
"Tell me again. I need to understand."
"I want you. I want to make you feel good." Nirei felt his heart race at those words, a mixture of excitement and nervousness flooding his senses.
"But why? Why me? And why not..."
"I love you," the other said so casually he might as well have been talking about the weather. However the declaration of love hung in the air, leaving Nirei speechless.
"I..."
"Don't say anything. I didn't tell you because I want to hear an answer. I don't need you to feel the same way."
"I don't understand. What about..."
Suo smiled patiently. "Who, Nirei? Who would you have me talk about instead of you?"
Nirei blushed.
"If I wanted to, I would be with them. But I don't, I want you."
"Suo..."
"I can stop. I can stop coming to you if that's what you want. I can stop touching you. But I can't stop loving you. I can't stop caring about you. And I can't stop being your friend. Even if you don't love me, even if you don't want me."
"That's not what I said," Nirei whispered.
"I... I'm just afraid. You're my best friend. I can't risk losing that."
"You can't lose me. But, if you want, we can forget that any of this happened." The smaller teen didn't miss the tremor in his friend's voice.
Nirei was torn. "It did happen though." He said. "More than once."
"It will only happen as often as you want it to."
Letting the words sink in, the blonde thought. He could let it stop. They could go back to the way things had been. They could pretend none of it had happened.
And they would both be miserable.
Suo loved him.
And that was...
Well, it was...
He didn't know what it was.
Except it was wonderful and terrifying.
And he wanted.
"You're the one who has to stop this, Suo." Suo's eye widened. "Not me. You can't just give me this and take it away."
Before the other could answer, Nirei kissed him. Suo responded to the kiss without hesitation, leaning into his partner's touch. Parting their lips to deepen the kiss, causing Nirei to gasp.
"You need to stop, Suo," he pleaded desperately.
Suo's voice echoed in the dimly lit room, filled with a mixture of frustration and longing. "Then don't kiss me. Stop kissing me, Nirei."
Nirei didn't stop. Instead, he let the other tilt his head back, let him press kisses on his throat.
"You're so pretty," Suo muttered, "so beautiful. My beautiful boy."
Nirei shivered. "Don't say that."
"Why not? It's true."
"No, it's not. I'm just…"
"You're just what?" Suo pulled away just a bit, just enough to look at him. "You're the loveliest thing I've ever seen." His hands were on Nirei's hips, his thumbs tracing over his hipbones. Nirei panted, feeling Suo's teeth on his skin.
"That's…" he could barely speak. "That's going to leave a mark."
"Good," Suo said and bit down on his shoulder.
Nirei gasped, his fingers tightening in Suo's hair.
"You're so sensitive." The other chuckled, kissing the spot he'd just bitten.
He was sensitive. Too sensitive, maybe. And Suo was everywhere, his hands, his mouth, his body. He could barely catch his breath.
Suo moved lower, kissing his collarbones and his chest. Nirei arched into him. This wasn't how it was supposed to be, and it wasn't supposed to happen. They were just friends, best friends. They shouldn't be doing this.
But it felt so good. So good, it was almost painful.
Suo's teeth grazed his nipple, and Nirei cried out. He felt the other grin against his skin, his tongue circling the little bud and his hand going lower over Nirei's stomach.
And then lower.
Nirei writhed under him, his hands tangled in brown hair, his legs falling open. Suo pulled away, and Nirei took a breath, trying to slow his racing heartbeat, feeling the absence of the brunette's presence like a physical ache. He watched the other move across the room, opening the drawer next to the bed and pulling out a small bottle.
Nirei shivered, knowing what it was for.
He'd even held it once.
"I thought you were out," he said, his voice hoarse.
Suo shrugged, moving back to the bed. "I never know when you'll knock on my door."
Nirei blushed. "It's not like it's a regular occurrence."
"It should be."
Nirei stared at him as his hands traced a slow, deliberate path up his legs, his touch sending tingles through his skin. A lone red eye roamed over his body. "You look so good like this."
Suo popped the cap, wetting his fingers.
"On my bed," he murmured, as Nirei shuddered at the touch, "legs open, waiting for me."
"I -" Nirei's words, whatever they were, turned into a low moan as Suo pushed a finger into him. His eyes fluttered, his hands clawing at the sheets as the familiar feeling of being filled washed over him.
"So perfect for me," Suo mumbled, slowly adding a second finger.
Nirei whimpered, his body quivering. "Suo, I- Please.."
"Shhh, it's okay. I'm here."
He moaned as the other scissored his fingers, stretching him open. Nirei's body was on fire, and he was burning, burning, burning, for more. For more of Suo, all of him, in all the ways he'd never allowed himself to want before.
Suo bent over him, his mouth hot on Nirei's, his fingers pumping inside him. Nirei wrapped his arms around Suo's neck, kissing him back feverishly. Suo's tongue slid into his mouth, his fingers twisting inside him, and Nirei broke the kiss, crying out.
"Hayato," he gasped. "Please, I need you."
Suo groaned, sliding his fingers out of him and grabbing the bottle of lube. Nirei watched as he poured a generous amount into his hand, coating his cock. He moved, settling between Nirei's legs.
"Is this okay?" He sounded as breathless as Nirei felt.
Nirei nodded.
Suo lifted his legs, putting them over his shoulders. He held his breath as the other pressed into him, his eyes fluttering shut. "Nirei." Suo's voice was rough, his hands on Nirei's hips, pulling him closer.
He opened his eyes, his gaze meeting Suo's. Gasping as the other pushed deeper into him, his fingers digging into the other's shoulders. Suo's breath was warm on his skin, his lips moving against Nirei's, his tongue licking into his mouth.
It was too much, almost scary, with how good it felt. He pulled away, panting loudly.
"You feel so good, Nirei. So fucking good."
Nirei moaned, his back arching off the bed, his hips rising to meet Suo's thrusts. Suo buried his face in the other's neck, kissing his pulse, his teeth grazing his skin.
"Suo," he gasped, his body trembling.
"I've got you," Suo murmured, his hands roaming over Nirei's body.
Nirei whined, his hips bucking, his legs wrapping around Suo's waist. Suo groaned in response, his hands tightening on Nirei's hips, his cock driving deeper.
"Oh, god." Nirei clung to him, his nails raking down his back, his legs pulling him closer. The sound of Suo's ragged breath was intoxicating, the feeling of his cock filling him, pushing into him, driving him wild.
He could feel his orgasm building, his body shaking with need.
Suo's teeth sank into his neck, his tongue licking the spot, and Nirei came, his vision going white, his body spasming, his legs tightening around Suo's waist.
Suo fucked him through his climax, his rhythm erratic, his hips stuttering. "Nirei," he moaned, his voice hoarse, his cock throbbing, his balls tightening.
Nirei held onto him, his body shuddering, his hands fisted in Suo's hair.
"Come for me," he breathed, "Come for me, Suo."
Suo groaned, his fingers digging into Nirei's skin, his cock pulsing inside him.
"Fuck, Nirei."
They stayed like that, their bodies intertwined, their breathing ragged. Suo's lips brushed over Nirei's jaw, his nose, his lips. Nirei turned his head, kissing him, his tongue darting into the other's mouth. They kissed until they were breathless, until their hearts stopped racing, until their bodies stopped shaking.
The taller teen rolled onto his side, pulling Nirei into his arms. The blonde was exhausted, yet his mind was racing.
Suo had told him he loved him.
And now, they'd slept together.
And the confusing part was he didn't regret it.
Not a single moment.
"Are you okay?" Suo asked softly.
"Yeah," Nirei breathed, his body melting into the other's embrace.
"Do you regret it?"
"No." He didn't regret what they had just done, which surprised him.
He had been so worried, so afraid of ruining their friendship. But now, as he lay in Suo's arms, he felt nothing but contentment. He never would have thought that this would happen between them. Despite that he couldn't deny that it felt right like this was where they were supposed to be.
"Me neither." Suo kissed the top of Nirei's head.
They lay there, the silence broken only by their breathing and the occasional sounds from outside.
"We should get cleaned up."
"We should."
Neither of them moved.
"What does this mean?" Nirei finally asked, breaking the silence.
Suo's fingers idly traced over Nirei's skin. "It means whatever you want it to mean."
The freckled teen was surprised at how easy it was to decide what he wanted. He wanted Suo, this, whatever "this" was. He looked up at the other, meeting his gaze.
"I want you to be mine."
Suo's eye widened for a split second, surprised by the sudden declaration before he smiled a soft, gentle smile that made Nirei's heart flutter. "I already am."
The blonde laughed. "I'm serious."
"So am I. I've been yours for a long time."
"Then I'm yours too."
"Really?"
"Really."
Suo kissed him, his hands cradling his face.
They lay there, their bodies intertwined, their hearts beating in sync.