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It started out as just a whim .
When Itadori Yuji appeared in his life as his student, Satoru imagined that he would be just another person pulled into the jujutsu world against his will and that he would break in the face of such a cruel and vile world.
But contrary to what he thought, it was different.
Yuji remained a cheerful, smiling, optimistic, kind and altruistic young man.
A whim in his cold and cruel world of the jujutsu world that made him attracted to the boy.
Then came Yuji's devotion to him with a blind trust in everything he said that made Yuji's image of freshness change.
It turned into curiosity .
As Yuji's first days at the jujutsu school passed and Satoru was by his side, he found himself curious about the pink-haired boy with golden skin that was brighter than the sun.
Yuji was a purity unlike any he had seen and not even Sukuna could tarnish such purity.
So as he played and interacted with Yuji, getting to know him better, his feelings evolved into a friendship .
Yuji matched his personality, encouraging him, never denying him and just following his own energy.
The fake smiles that Satoru gave in his daily life became genuinely true when in the presence of the pink-haired boy and anyone could tell that if they knew him well.
When Satoru was informed that he would have a distant mission, he was a little sad about being separated from Yuji for an indefinite period of time, so he decided to stay as close to him as possible.
He spent the day with Yuji, joking and bothering him.
What did he get in return?
Big, radiant smiles, genuine laughter and the acceptance of a person who only wanted him around and who wished him a good mission and that he would return safely.
It was when he took Yuji to his dorm that the pink-haired boy hugged him and wished him a good mission with a sweet smile that made Satoru's heart skip a beat.
It was then that he knew that he now had a crush on Yuji.
When he left for his mission, he took advantage of his time to buy souvenirs and take pictures of places he promised to bring Yuji to see one day.
With each thing he bought, he noticed how they were things with pink, strawberry, peach, cherry blossom, or even yellow, honey, lemon, melon...
Everything that reminded him of Yuji's pink hair and golden eyes.
His mission was only cementing the feelings he held for Yuji.
His heart filled with a warmth he didn't think was possible, as he imagined Yuji's reaction to each thing he could show him from his mission.
However, his joy ended the moment he received a call from Ichiji.
"Itadori Yuji died on mission"
At that moment, the world that Satoru thought was starting to brighten turned icy in the blink of an eye.
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He asked to prepare Yuji's body.
Seeing the person who was lighting up and warming his world with a huge hole in his chest was hard.
But Satoru tried to control himself.
He fixed Yuji's body and just imagining what he had gone through created such great anger that he knew that the moment he left that room there would be a massacre and no one could stop him.
Because the only person who could stop him…
…
Satoru focused on his last moments with Yuji.
He recited to Yuji everything he had seen on his mission with the intention of showing him.
Speaking emotionally about each date he wanted to take him to.
Everything he wanted to show him.
He said everything with a smile on his face, holding back tears that threatened to fall from his eyes as he felt like he wanted to rip out his own heart.
Even though he thought they had already done it, because they had killed the person who made his heart beat.
When he finished cleaning Yuji's body, Satoru slowly approached him and smoothed his pink hair for one last time.
Satoru just wanted it not to be the last time.
That Yuji could just open his eyes and smile at him.
Satoru stared at the face that shone with life, now becoming paler and paler away from the warmth that radiated before.
He got closer to Yuji's face and placed a soft kiss on his forehead.
His first and last kiss that he allowed himself to give Yuji.
What he wanted most was to seal his lips on Yuji's, but after his failure with the person who healed the wounds in his heart...
Satoru did not allow himself this last hope.
When he realized that unfortunately Shoko would have to go back and finish the job, Satoru looked at Yuji once again, lifeless on that cold table, and spoke with a broken voice.
Goodbye Yuji. - said Satoru saying goodbye to his heart.
With these words, Satoru finally let Shoko and Ichiji enter the room.
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Satoru was overcome by a desire for blood.
He would not stop until he killed all the high-ups and anyone who was connected to Yuji's assassination order.
He would not stop hunting them until he annihilated them forever.
They took away the most important person in his life.
They took away his heart.
His sun.
His breath of life in this cruel, cold and colorless world.
Satoru saw only red.
And he knew he would see more of the same when he spilled the blood of those who hurt his sweet Yuji.
His thoughts were something taken from the most terrible of horror movies when they abruptly stopped.
They stopped for the strong beats of his heart to start beating again with force.
For his world to start to color again.
Because there in the middle of the cold table ready to be dissected.
Yuji rose back to life.
Yuji stared at him.
Yuji smiled at him.
And Satoru?
Satoru saw that he really was the chosen one because his beloved had returned from death to him.
And this time he would protect him.
No matter the cost.
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After talking to Shoko and speaking “kindly” to Ichiji about Yuji’s false death report.
Satoru took Yuji to his house. Teleporting the pink-haired boy with him.
As soon as he arrived at his house, away from prying eyes, the first thing Satoru did was hug Yuji.
His student jumped in surprise, but didn’t deny his approach.
Sensei, what happened? Are you okay? - Yuji asked worriedly.
This only drew a bitter laugh from Satoru.
Because even though his heart had been ripped out, literally, Yuji still worried about his sensei and not about himself.
Satoru just hugged Yuji tighter and pressed him closer to himself.
Just... stay like this for a minute. - Satoru said softly.
He just needed to feel Yuji against him.
He needed to be sure that this wasn't a dream or a cruel hallucination.
Yuji was in front of him.
Yuji was in his arms.
Yuji was alive.
Satoru just needed to be sure.
After a few long minutes where he felt Yuji hug him back and gently caress his hair, Satoru knew that everything was okay.
Everything would be okay.
Yuji was there.
And nothing else would take him away from him.
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He started training Yuji.
As always, Yuji was so excited to learn from him.
Yuji did everything without question.
Always happy to just be in Satoru's presence.
Making Satoru his world.
His gaze said that for him everything Satoru said was his sky and the stars.
Satoru had never felt so loved in his life, as he did during his time teaching Yuji.
And with his heart beating so deeply for him, he knew he was lost.
And then the days passed and…
The feeling only intensified.
When he wasn't training, he and Yuji would just be together playing or having fun with each other's mere presence.
Satoru didn't take much care of his house, but when he lived with him, Yuji decided to take care of everything by himself.
Yuji washed the clothes, cleaned the house, cooked and took care of Satoru.
Satoru felt like he had gained a wife.
A beautiful and perfect wife.
Then one fateful day.
Satoru arrived home tired from a long day.
He had done everything he could to be out at dinner time so he could have his precious time with his Yuji.
When he opened the door to his house he was greeted with the soft smell of home-cooked food.
A soft humming sound and the sound of pots being used soon stopped momentarily when Satoru made his presence known.
While still taking off his shoes, Satoru heard Yuji running to meet him at the front door.
Happyly waiting for his student, Satoru decided to remove his blindfold, just so he could have a full view of the person he loved.
However, he soon felt that his hard and difficult day was completely worth it.
For soon a Yuji with a wide smile on his face upon seeing him, with his face slightly flushed due to cooking, wearing a ridiculous apron that perfectly matched the young man appeared in front of him.
Satoru felt arrows being shot at his heart.
And to give him a final blow, Yuji just said.
Gojo-sensei! Welcome back! What do you want first today? Dinner or a bath? - Yuji said innocently while looking at him brightly.
Satoru felt the world freeze.
At that moment he only saw himself building a life with Yuji.
And that scene could only be repeated every day for the rest of their lives.
He felt his heart race.
Beating so hard that he felt Yuji could hear it from where he was.
But in the end he knew it was just his emotions speaking louder.
And knowing the sweet innocence of his beloved pupil, he just laughed.
I would love to take a bath first Yuji~~ - Satoru said excitedly.
Yuji just laughed and accompanied him to the bathroom separating his clothes and organizing the last details so Satoru could take a good bath.
So much care for him.
So much love without expecting anything in return.
That messed with Satoru.
It messed with things in his heart.
Things that were going beyond pure love.
Because Satoru didn't want Yuji to leave.
He didn't want to have to share the same with anyone else.
He didn't want his bright smile to be directed at anyone other than him.
His thoughts were bordering on a very possessive love, almost an
obsession
.
Putting his thoughts aside.
Satoru finished his bath and soon went to the kitchen where Yuji just smiled happily at him and led him to sit at the table.
Satoru just had a wide smile on his face while Yuji calmly served him and soon sat in front of him.
I hope you like dinner today, sensei. - Yuji said with a big smile.
Satoru just wanted to kiss him.
If it was a meal prepared by my sweet Yuji, I'm sure it's perfect, just like everything you make Yuji~~ - Satoru said dreamily.
He smiled when he saw Yuji blush slightly and laugh embarrassedly, making his heart flutter.
I hope so, because I made Kikufuku for dessert for you sensei. - Yuji said embarrassedly.
Satoru froze his hand in the air.
He was about to start eating when he heard the promise of a sweet dessert and he knew he was lost.
How could someone as perfect as Yuji exist?
How could someone so sweet only appear in his life now.
Did he really have to share him?
In the end Satoru just laughed and soon he and Yuji started talking.
In the middle of the conversation Yuji spoke.
How was your work today, sensei? - Yuji asked calmly while eating and looking at him innocently.
And once again that night, Satoru froze.
Because that was so...
Domestic.
The image of Yuji as a wife was increasingly fixed in his mind thanks to that.
Can't I just have him all to myself?
Satoru looked at Yuji and saw how the younger was waiting for him to tell him everything that happened in his usual way.
And that's what Satoru did.
He told him everything he did that day, exaggerating boring moments and saying how everything was ridiculously easy for him.
Yuji listened to each of his words with great attention, laughing slightly at his dramatization of some of his actions and smiling foolishly at any of his antics.
And since Satoru just wanted to stay in that look forever.
In the end, dinner was over and since Satoru was in a very good mood and just wanted to be with Yuji, he asked the younger boy to stay by his side while they watched some movie.
Of course Yuji was going to get the terrible plush, but Satoru refused, saying that now they were watching something just to relax and not even train.
They watched an action movie and in the midst of the fun of being with each other, they decided to have a marathon, so they soon went to watch a comedy movie followed by a sweet romance movie.
And that was how, in the middle of a long and syrupy romance movie, Satoru found himself commenting on the movie with Yuji.
Laughing at several scenes and commenting on the drama of scenes that could have been avoided.
While secretly he wanted every scene to be lived with him and Yuji as the main characters of their own romance.
When the movie ended with the couple getting married and the woman saying she was pregnant and that they could start a family, Satoru saw how Yuji's eyes lit up.
Seeing a different light in Yuji, Satoru realized that he had never known if Yuji wanted to start some kind of family before.
Of course he knew about the type of woman Yuji liked.
But other than that he had no idea if Yuji had any kind of dream of starting a family.
So driven by his curiosity, he decided to ask.
Yuji~~ Would you also like to start a family? - Satoru asked calmly.
Although inside he was afraid.
What if Yuji wants to start a big family with a woman?
What if he abandons Satoru?
What if he leaves.
He couldn't allow that.
Yuji was his and his alone.
Yuji just shook his head, completely oblivious to the rollercoaster of thoughts in Satoru's head.
I once thought about having a big family, I lived my whole life with only my grandfather and although I loved every moment with him, I always longed for a big and noisy family, but... now with Sukuna and my execution I can't afford to think about it, so I'm just content to stay by your side and become a strong sensei. - Yuji said with a soft smile on his face.
Satoru couldn't handle such honesty and hugged Yuji tightly.
My sweet Yuji-kun is so cute~~ Of course sensei will always be by your side~~ - Satoru said happily.
"You would stay by my side for the rest of our lives"
In the end, the rest of the night was filled with lively and fun conversations until Yuji fell asleep in the middle of a movie on Satoru's shoulder.
At that moment, Satoru took advantage of an unconscious Yuji and placed him on his lap.
Satoru pressed Yuji's body against him, while feeling the soft scent of his shampoo on Yuji's hair.
He wanted that for himself.
Satoru just allowed himself to feel that warmth and spend more time with Yuji, appreciating the younger man's body on top of him.
In the end, Satoru imagined that Yuji might really want a family, but he was happy that the young man was content to just stay by his side.
Yuji didn't see him romantically.
He saw him only as a mentor and someone he deeply admired.
And even if Satoru wanted more, he was happy with that.
Because that meant that Yuji would never look for someone else.
That meant that Yuji would be forever stuck by his side.
And since he would never kill Yuji…
Yuji would spend his life by his side.
And he could get rid of anyone who tried to separate them.
Satoru accepted this.
He could be content with staying by Yuji's side.
Protecting and guiding him.
You want more than that.
He would be a perfect mentor for him.
You want to possess him.
Letting Yuji live a full life in this vast world.
You would never let him leave.
Yes, Satoru was okay with that.
No, you would never let him leave you.
In the end.
Satoru stayed a few more minutes with Yuji in his lap before taking the sleeping young man to his room and placing him gently on the bed and adjusting him before placing a soft kiss on his forehead and closing the door to Yuji's room.
It was hard to control the love he felt for Yuji.
But he accepted that the younger boy would never be with anyone.
Yuji would never look for someone to love.
And he would only have Satoru by his side.
And that was enough.
That had to be enough.
That was what he told himself.
That was what he had to force himself to believe.
If he wanted to be with Yuji by his side.
He could do it.
Now and forever.
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The sister schools event happened and Yuji returned to the schools' dormitory.
And Satoru's house was once again a cold and lifeless place.
However, to his surprise, Yuji continued to visit him.
Even though he had his friends and now his senpais, Yuji still tried to spend most of his time with Satoru and that reminded him that the connection they created would be there forever.
And that messed with Satoru.
In a way that shouldn't be messed with.
But life went on and Satoru was happy with his simple passion.
A passion he would never say anything about.
One he was content with just being by her side.
But his students went on a mission and when they returned…
Satoru was given a chance.
A beautiful and beautiful chance sent by the heavens.
And he couldn't help but seize it.
After all.
He loved Yuji.
And no one could ever deny that.
Not even Yuji.