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Freedom. May seem to be a simple thing to one but for another it is everything. A Dream, that Reze thought would never come true.

As the moment she was born, she never truly know the meaning of it. She only knew rules, obedience and roles to be filled in. That failure means death. Though at some point she wanted to choose that than be caged all her life.

Different mission, Different Person.
But never the one she truly want to be.
Yet one mission changed her life's trajectory.

"I should've killed him the first time we met"
But You didn't
"I should've killed him in that pool--"
But You didn't
"I should've killed him"
I couldn't.

Reze thought to herself. Those days with Denji, it may have started to be an assassin mission but she truly did like him in the end. Denji was such a good soul, she even felt she's not worthy to be with him.

She wanted his heart, not his chainsaw one.
That kiss, it wasn't even part of the job, yet it felt right. Not the tongue biting of course, well she felt a pang of jealousy when Makima's name was mentioned.

Those days will forever be engraved in her memory. In which she's glad to be freed from Makima's manipulation.

She thought to ran to Denji. But she remembered Makima's words before she passed out bleeding in that Alleyway.

"I should reward Denji-kun for leading me to you. Did you really think he would runaway with you? Choose You Over Me? Pathetic Hybrid"

From feeling happy and hurt about seeing Denji waiting for her in the cafe like he said so... Anger replaced that emotion, Anger from the betrayal.
The moment she finally chose to make her own decision and not follow anyone, she fails.

But then again Makima is full of manipulation and lies. Because if Denji really wanted her dead he could've just killed her in the ocean.. Yet he dressed her, covered her up.

The truth doesn't matter at this point, Reze thought. Denji might've been mad at her for not showing up. Thinking she ghosted him, so one thing she's for sure. She would start a new life.

Because at the end, she really should've chosen to be the country mouse, aiming to be the city mouse only got her in trouble. She thought as she boarded the train going to a Northern rural part of Japan.

............

"Rose. These order is for Table 3"

Reze took the try of food and headed towards table 3. Summer has just begun so the days are getting busy in this small curry shop she works in.

It didn't take long before she got a new job at the curry shop wherein the owners who's an old childless couple had also allowed her to rent the top of the shop.

As long as she makes sure she cleans during opening and closing of the shop. One bedroom and half a bathroom is enough for her, she had worst living conditions back at the training camp.

It also wasn't hard for her to give a reference because the old man in the cafe back in Tokyo was happy to help her talk to the owner of the curry shop.

"He waited for you until the closing time. Even brought your favorite flowers--"

The old guy said, pertaining Denji. The day she and him planned to runaway. Maybe Makima lied or that was a ploy to make it look realistic.

She shrugged the memory of that phonecall,
nothing good will come out of it anyway. Reze went on ahead of her day taking orders, making sure customers are well taken care of.

It was almost closing time. She was wiping the table when she heard the bell to the entrance chime. Her back was turned not seeing who the customer was, she forgot to flip the sign board damn it!

She wiped her hands on her apron and turned around.

"I'm sorry but we are about to close. I just forgot to flip--"

She dropped the rag and spray bottle. Her heart stopped, does she even have one? Of course you do, her brain thought. You had fallen for this idiot in front of you.

Not knowing how to react. It can't be,
she thought.
How did he-

"Reze..."

As Denji entered the shop, holding a bouquet of flowers. Same as the ones he gave her in that phonebooth thought these ones looked like they got tired from the way here.

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"Reze"

Denji couldn't believe his eyes right now,
A lot has happened ever since he last saw her.
That was two years ago, almost three.

So many questions he wanted to ask from the day he waited for her in that cafe. He found out about the truth of her choosing to be with him and to meet in the cafe but Makima intercepted through Aki's letters written before their fight with the Gun Devil.. A letter that he only got a hold of after defeating Makima.

But first, he wanted to apologize to her.

Before he knew it, he had stepped closer to her and touched her right cheek. As if making sure she's real. Her face remained the same with those haunting green eyes. He tried to forget about her but everytime he stumbled in the forest everything reminded him of those eyes.

Same eyes that looked at him with such affection added with the smile that made his heartbeat erratic. A proof he really do have a heart.

Then his eyes locked onto her lips, he still remember how it feels like, how it taste like minus the tongue biting part. But he never regret that night, if it meant losing his tongue to kiss her, so be it.

It took a couple of seconds before he felt Reze's palm slapped his cheek. The stinging pain that reverbrated from her slap confirmed that everything is real.

"Reze, I came here to see you. I read this letter Aki wrote and found the truth from there..

I went to that cafe you work the other day. I don't know why but I'm glad I did. Cause' pops told me you have a new job here now"

He has a hard time reading Reze's reaction. It's the same face she made in that beach when he told her they should runaway. A face that is making a decision to leave him again.

"Reze please we need to talk."

"There's nothing to talk about Denji.
Reze is dead"

"Reze you're not dead, You're here--"

"No Denji She's dead. Please Just leave."

"Reze please-"

"I SAID REZE IS DEAD!! SHE DIED IN THAT ALLEYWAY BLEEDING OUT LOOKING AT YOUR BACK!!!"

He could see tears building in the corner of her eyes.

If only he turned around during that day to see if she was coming. He could've seen her... Saved her, but it's all in the past now. What matters is she's here in front of him.

She was about to speak when an old guy popped his head outta the kitchen, he look like he's in his 60s

"Rose-chan, is everything okay? I heard some shouting"

"Everything is fine, Nagato-san. I'm just about to close the shop and ask this customer to just come back tomorrow"

The Nagato-san got out of the kitchen, he was short, barely at Denji's chest level. He stood in front of him assessing from head to toe

Though his built isn't frail, aside from the gray hair and wrinkles he looks fit for a 60 year old. Maybe gramps is working out, Denji thought to himself.

"Is this young man bothering you? Is he one of those lads bugging you to go out with him"

Something inside Denji got irritated hearing that there's some guy wanting Reze's attention.

Reze is mine. No one else's.

"No. He's just about to leave, right sir?"

Reze looked at him smiling, but he knew that smile was the fake one. It's those ones she practiced well as a soviet union soldier.

He won't be making the same mistake twice.
It's now or never.

"Sorry for making a scene sir. But I'm an old acquiantance of Re--

Of Rose-chan in Tokyo. She told me this shop serves the best curry in town. So if it's okay may I order a plate of curry tempura, Im just so hungry and tired from my travel." He smiled

"Why didn't you say so? But I'm surprised Rose-chan never mentioned any friends from Tokyo.

Of course she won't

"But Nagato-san we're almost closing"

"Rose-chan, don't worry you can leave exactly at 9pm. I'll be the one to close the shop."

"Are you sure? What about Nanako-san waiting for you"

"It's alright, she'll understand. She knows I don't like turning awat hungry customers if I can still cook a plate for them"

Reze sighed. She has a soft spot for the old man and accepted it.

"Just sit right there young man, I'll be bringing you the food after a few minutes"

As soon as Nagato-san disappeared in the kitchen, Reze's demeanor changed.

"Are you happy now Denji? I'm sure any minute your friends would be here to murder or capture me. Then you'll get rewarded by your owner, Makima..

Go on make that call now. But I'm telling you I'll make sure to take your heart out this time"

Denji flinched at the mention of his friends and Makima. If only Power and Aki were here,
Denji took a deep breathe.

"You already did" he whispered not looking into Reze.

"What?"

"I said. I dont have much friends left...aside from one
and regards to my heart." As he looked at her

"The moment you left me on that beach you already took it with you."

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"The moment you left me on that beach you already took it with you."

Denji's words keep on replaying in her head like a broken record as Reze lies down in her small bed on the shop's second floor.

She was grateful for the old couple's generosity for offering her not just a job but a shelter as well. She had kept on insisting to pay them from her salary but the two just shrugged and Nanako san said,

"The shop got back its shine when you came in. You are our lucky charm, an angel sent by the heavens. "

If only they knew she was far from being an Angel.

They said her "rent payment" is just to make sure the shop is well taken care off. Just seeing customers happy with their service is enough.

She sat up and looked out the window, watching the stars dance in the sky. She had come to love the peace and serenity living in the countryside.

She looked at the flowers on her bedside propped in a vase full of water. The ones Denji brought for her.

She was about to throw it out in the garbage at the back of the shop when Nagato-san spoke behind her,

"Such beautiful flowers do not deserve to be thrown away."

She couldn't give him a proper answer but these flowers is a reminder of the hope and future she once thought her and Denji could've had.

"Tell me child, did he broke your heart? Because if he did I'll kick him out myself before midnight"

Nagato san is like the Father she never had, being protective and caring. She turned around to him,

"No Nagato-san. He didn't, it's just.... Complicated"

"So really is your ex-boyfriend then?"

"No he's not my.. He never...

There was nothing to be broken" she sighed

"If there is love, there'll be hurt. Then there would be something to be broken. Emotions are complicated but it's what makes humans a unique creatures of this earth. Animals act on instinct, human act on emotions."

But I am only half human, she wanted to say.

"Do you love him Rose-Chan?"

She was taken off guard by his question,
She could only look at the flowers in her hand.
After a few quiet moments.

"No need to give me an answer, I'm pretty sure you well know how you feel about him. The question is, what would you do with those feelings.

Because from what I see Denji knows what he needs to do, how about you?"

After being free from Makima's control and getting back her memories. She promised herself she would become a better version of herself.

No more pretending. She would do what's best and that is to live an honest and peaceful life minus the truth about her being a hybrid of course.

After one last look at the flowers, she made her decision on what to do tomorrow as she closed her eyes to sleep.

Reze woke up from an hour earlier than her alarm clock, Again.

Even after two years, her sleeping habits are the same as when she was in the training camp.
Needing to be awake before other people so she won't get scraps for food.

She stood from her bed and headed to the small bathroom parallel to her room.

She opened the door and was shocked to see Denji inside, half naked with only his boxers on. What's worst is that he was relieving himself the moment she went in,

She could see the whole view from where she's standing.

Reze couldn't say a word. Her eyes went back to and forth to Denji's face and his thing.

But as she looked at Denji again, she saw the drastic change in his figure. He was lean and skimpy last time they were together specifically in the school pool. But right now, she could see the muscles that he has built due to training and fighting. His shoulders became broader, his arms and abs more defined

He looks more of a man now. She couldn't help but wonder about the scars he has now that wasn't there before.

He's fully unaware of her presence due to the fact his eyes were closed due to sleepiness or whatever.

For a hybrid he really does have bad senses.

And at last he felt her staring, he opened his eyes and surprise and embarassment on etched his face.

"Reze.. I sorry I just badly need to pee--"
As he scrambles to pull up his boxers

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE DENJI?!"

"Old Pops Nagato said I can stay here and sleep on the couch for the duration of my stay...

As long as I help in the shop."

"Wait what? You're staying?

"Yeah"

"How Long?"

"I don't know"

"Denji we both know you can't stay here forever"

"Reze, I just.. I just want to spend some time with you and maybe."

"Maybe what?"

"Maybe we could start all over again"

She took a deep breathe and looked down
"Denji. I honestly don't know what to do. I didn't even know I'll be seeing you again."

"Reze Look at Me" and she did

"Do you hate me?" as Denji's eyes looked into hers.

"Because if you do, I'll leave. Right Here Right Now. I will not push you anymore, it's just you're the only one from my past that I have gotten to see again. Everyone either died or just left."

She felt bad for him, even during their first encounter she knew Denji's heart was pure. That he will never have an ill intention towards other people no matter how cruel the world was to him.

Denji washed his hands, the only sound is the water running and faucet closing.

When she hasn't given an answer yet,
Denji looked at her defeated and was about to walk past her when she said

"I don't hate you Denji. I could never hate you.
I just hate how fate played with our lives. I don't know how to be normal Denji, all my life I only know violence, survival and be a weapon of destruction...

The moment I found a chance for happiness, it was taken from me as quickly as I got it.

I went back Denji. I went back for you. But Makima--" She couldn't finished her sentence due to the tears that started to fall. Even just remembering that day still brings pain to her.

Suddenly she felt strong arms wrapped around her waist, Denji is hugging her from the back, she could feel his muscles and hard chest due to her thin pajama tank top.

"I am here Reze, nobody can hurt you now."

Then as she still processing Denji's hug she felt his lips on top of her head. DID HE JUST KISSED HER HEAD?

She felt safe and comfortable in his arms that she even leaned more onto him. They stayed like that for a couple of minutes until Denji turned her around to face him.

Both of his hands went to her face, caressing it. His thumbs wiping off her tears, she could feel herself blushing from the gesture.

His eyes never leaving her face as if engraving it to his mind, then he looked at her lips and back to her asking for permission.

She doesn't know what kind of eye contact she gave because Denji is now leaning in to kiss her and she just closed her eyes ready to feel his lips,

"MEEEEEOOOOWWWWWWWW"

A chunky white and brown fluffball is in between their legs.

As if a child getting caught doing something naughty, Reze pulled back and normalized her beathing.

"Ugh.. Sorry Reze, Meowy got in the way" As Denji scratches his head. She could see that he was also blushing

"Meowy?" As she looked at the cat. Did Denji owned a cat before he never mentioned it.

"She used to belong to my friend, her name's Power. She was a blood devil

Past Tense. I hope it's not what I think it is.

"Used to?"

"She Died, by the hands of Makima" Reze saw Denji's eyes cast down as he mentions his departed friend.

"Oh. I'm sorry"

"It's okay it's not your fault."

Meowy's purring was the one who broke awkward silence.

"Yeah I'm gonna feed you now." As Denji talks to the cat, it suddenly plopped on the floor.

"Denji"

"Hmmm" as he was busy scratching the cat's tummy.

"Yes... I want to start again"

She saw Denji stopped on what he was doing, stood up and his focus turned to her.

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It's been a week since Denji have found Reze in this small town in Kamifurano, Hokkaido. After two, no almost three years.

In all honesty he never expected to really see her again, but he's glad that fate gave them a chance.

He was almost done cooking their breakfast,
it has became a routine now. After Aki's departure and losing Power next, denji had to fend for himself, not that Power was any help in household chores. But he tried to do the things he usually did with those two just so he could feel like they're still here.

He cooks then Reze cleans, she can't be trusted in the kitchen but he would still eat whatever she cooks though. He just recently found out that she is a neat freak, often scolding him when she sees something unkept or not put back in their usual place.

After breakfast, they go downstairs to start their day in the curry shop. Due to the high volume of tourists and influencers coming to the shop, they end up closing 1-2 hours early than normal because their food gets sold out really quick.

So by early evening him and Reze would walk around the park. But they never talked about the almost kiss they had, Denji couldn't get the right chance to bring it up afraid that Reze would shut him off.

"Ohayo Denji" As Reze greets him coming from the shower, her hair still wrapped in a towel.

"Ohayo Reze. I made pancakes." As he turned off the stove and place all the food on the small table.

Denji learned that Reze loves pancakes but not waffles. She likes her eggs sunnyside up and runny then for coffee she likes it black with just a pinch of sugar.

They were almost done eating, Reze just finishing off her plate when she asked him,

"Denji I love how you make pancakes,
where did you learn to cook? You said you were an orphan early on and barely eating"

So she still remembers the things he told her.
He smiled at the thought.

"Did Makima taught you?" irritation in her voice.

He can even feel hatred lace in it.

Same tone she gives everytime Makima is brought up in the conversation, Denji wants to know the whole event that happened between her and Makima.
From Aki's letters it only said that Angel Devil was asked to stop her from going to him as long as she doesn't die.

"No it wasn't Makima... "

She looked relieved upon hearing it. He doesn't want her to think she still has a hold on him.

"It was my senpai, Aki. He was assigned to me when I was recruited to Public Safety. They knew he was strong enough to contain me as a hybrid especially being the chainsaw devil"

"So like a babysitter?" She giggled, now that's what he wants to hear again.

"Yeah like that. But we became family.
Me, him and Power, the blood devil also a hybrid."

"He seems like a kind hearted person"

"Yes he is. He likes to show that he's tough and nonchalant but deep inside... He's a softie"

"So he's like a big brother to you and Power?"

"Something like that" Denji scratched his head, a manner of habit.

"What do you guys usually do?"

"Uhm, most of the time Aki senpai is the one cooking, but after some time I asked him to teach me. He makes a monthly chores schedule for all of us in the house"

She laughs freely, how he missed that. It's like that time in the cafe again, one of the things that made him fall for her. Hard.

"He's more like a Mama Bear" she says trying to stop laughing

"Yeah I even heard he stood up for Himeno san when she got slapped by her previous partner's girlfriend"

"Himeno san?"

"She was my senpai and Aki's partner before being assigned to us. She cared about Aki, if I know even romantically. Aki senpai told me she wanted them to quit Public Safety and runaway."

Reze's smile faded upon hearing that statement. It reminds her of their supposed plan before...

"Where is this Himeno girl now?"

"She died. She got shot in the chest during our encounter with the Katana devil but she sacrificed herself fully to the devil she made a contract to save Aki from being harmed. I can't fight during that time because I too was also in badshape"

There was a short pause, just the sound of the people walking outside.

"Do you have any photos with them?"

He looks in the distance remembering those good old days with Aki and Power. Even Himeno senpai, how he wished they had photo together, he only knows their face in his memory.

"No. We don't, we should've had. They're just in my memories now.

I got comfortable thinking I'll be with them longer.. Atleast two years"

"Why two years?" She looked at me confused

"Aki made a deal with the future devil to gain power in exchange for his life, two years. Then during our fight with you, he saved the Angel devil by grabbing him and lessen his lifespan by two months advance"

"So he just recently died?"

"No. It was earlier than that.

I killed him." Denji heard her gasp as he almost whisper those words.

"Denji--"

"I had to. We were fighting the gun devil, who was the reason his family died. But fate really fucks you up sometimes.. Because he died and his body got possessed by it then turned into a Gun Fiend so
I had to kill him.

He was about to hurt Power.

Soon after, Makima killed Power in front of me"

On My supposedly birthday celebration Denji wants to add, after that day he never bothered with his birthday. It only reminds him of how he lost everything

He doesn't look at her, he just stares at his hand all the while. He could feel his tears in the corner of his eyes remembering all the things that happened.

Then he felt her hand on his face so he looked at her.

"Denji, It's not your fault.

and those people, your family do not blame you for that"

He stares at her, those green eyes looking at him with sincerity and sadness.

Then to comfort him more she hugs him.
They stayed liked that for a while til they heard the old man calling for Reze.

"Don't worry Denji, we'll make new ones"

........

"Denji ni-san!! Denji ni-san"

"Hello Aya-Chan!" As the. little girl catapulted herself to Denji, and him catching her just in time so she can hang on his arm.

Denji has only been in this town for a week but the neighboring people around already know who he is, except for the fact he's chainsawman badly wanted in Tokyo.

They only know him as Rose-chan's friend from Tokyo. City Boy. Some of the old folks give him a judgemental look, while Teenage Girls giggle and say Hi whenever they're in the shop. But aside from Reze the only one he doesn't mind is this little monkey hanging on to him whenever she gets a chance.

"Aya-chan! Don't disturb Denji-kun. He's working. I am really sorry Denji-kun"

"No, It's alright"

Aya-chan is an only child, She and her mom lives just across the street. From what Reze told him, her father is a deadbeat who left them in this town after she was born. Then her Mom is a preschool teacher.

"Guess what Denji ni-san, today's my birthday!!"
The little girl smiled at him with a missing tooth on the front

"Wow, Happy Birthday Aya-chan!" Denji exclaimed as he gently put her down and pat her head.

"Mama bought me a cake and we'll be eating here today to celebrate it. She said I can eat as many tempura I want!! Then I'll make a wish"

He smiled and let the little girl run to the shop. Denji busied himself with work until he hears

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYA-CHAN!!"
Suddenly he felt cold sweat hearing those phrases.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"

The world suddenly felt like it slowed down, and he was being brought back to that day

"Denji kun, come with me" No. Please.
His heart started beating fast he could hear it.

He remembers Power's surprised face upon seeing him, happily holding the cake after healing from her flu

"HAPPY BIRTH--"

and then a loud "BANG" from action movie came from TV attached to wall

"BANG!" As Power's body blasted in front of him. The cake she was holding have fallen and splattered on the floor.

"STOOOPP!!!!!" He screamed. While putting his hands to cover his ears.

The shop went quite, customers were staring at him.

He scanned his surroundings and saw Aya-chan didn't have a chance to blow her cake yet and Reze looking at him concerned

"Denji--"

He thinks he made a mistake of looking for her. She was living a peaceful life already, and here he is, still traumatized from his past.

She was about to go to him when Denji bolted outside the shop.

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He didn't know where his feet lead him but he found himself near a riverbank onlooking Mount Furano far ahead.

He's been sitting here for hours now, he doesn't know the time but with the Full Moon on display he guess it's nearing midnight

"Pochita, I think I made a mistake.
I shouldn't have looked for her.

She's living a happy life now and then I come back again.. Like this

The old man from the cafe was right, she's too good for me. I'm a poor orphan who never went to school meanwhile aside from getting proper education she even knows three languages...

I think I don't even deserve her Pochita.
I don't think I am capable of getting happiness
All my life the only thing I know was to survive, then when I get to have a family it was all taken away from me. Maybe I'm cursed, unlucky I shouldn't not been born--"

"The Moon looks beautiful tonight, no
Denji-kun?"

He quickly turned around to the sound of that voice. His eyes drank Reze's appearance under the moonlight, then she walks and went in front of him.

She looks ethereal in this view, Denji thought.
The reflection of the moon on the river gives something magical, takes him back to the night in the pool.

"Denji, truth is I've never gone to school either"

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"Denji, truth is I've never gone to school either"

As Reze sat beside Denji looking over the river.
No one said anything for a few minutes.

"The things I told you before, that I felt bad for you for not having to experience school. Having a loving home as a child and eating delicious foods..

I wasn't just talking about you. I was talking about me too."

Reze felt she needed to tell Denji this truth,
on the way here she overheard him talking. It hurts her to think Denji thought of himself that way.

"That day when we were supposed to meet,
I was about to ride a train going back to .. the people who asked me to kill you, report that I failed.

I failed because I fell for the target"

"Reze--" Denji looks at her surprised, and if she's not wrong he's also blushing but she couldn't see properly due to the night fall.

"Denji when I told you I really liked you, that was one of the truth against the lies I told you and myself. At first I thought maybe you're just different from my previous targets to eliminate. Don't get me wrong, I had missions that requires seduction and gaining trust.

But those short days with you gave me a chance to get to know you. The similarities we had made me connect with you, that I felt I can be myself

You made me feel... Alive not as a weapon, a hybrid but a human. That I'm Reze, not the assassin and not the Bomb Devil."

She was scared with her own emotions clouding her judgement towards Denji. Each day that passed she longed to be with him more and more, at first she thought maybe it was part of being the chainsaw devil. But it literally was just Denji being himself.

"That day on the telephone booth, I was supposed to slit your throat right away and kill you." That fake grabbing of napkin in her back pocket when her knife is there all the time

"Why didn't you?"

"Honestly, I keep asking myself the same question.
Why didn't I kill you the first time?" She looked at the stars above them.

" I guess it was the flower trick that got me"
she giggled and same as Denji.

"I'm sorry for failing you Reze. I should've waited outside the cafe, I could've seen you coming and even saved you." As Denji spoke with sincerity

Reze gave a deep sigh. She's not gonna lie looking at Denji's back knowing she's so near to him yet so far away because of that witch Makima makes her blood boil.

"It was painful Denji. The first time I made a choice not because I was told to do so, but because I wanted to I ended up, dead. Almost.

I'm also sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel I abandoned you this whole time" she smiles at him but tears are starting to fall now.

She was taken aback when Denji hugged her,
his masculine scent with a hint of cologne invading her and she likes it.

"It's okay Reze, you can cry it all out on me"

Denji took her hands and made her face him

"If you wanna hit me, do it. I'll take it, I deserve that anger" As he tried to make her hands hit him

But what Denji didn't see coming is her grabbing his face and making their lips connect with each other.

Reze closed her eyes relishing this feeling, it took some seconds before it registered to Denji because he was stiff then he got relaxed and closed his eyes as well.

It was Denji who now made the first move to deepen the kiss, one of his hands went to the back of her head as if cradling it, his other hand grabbed on her waist ensuring making sure it stayed in that angle.

Their lips move in tandem, kissing as if their lives depended on it but the moment Reze's tongue touched Denji's he kind of stiffened and she knew why.

Reze was the one who broke the kiss, both of them panting.

"Denji I won't bite it this time. I promise" As she smiled, a diffrent glow coming from her eyes.

"Reze I want you." As Denji spoke seriously.

Reze blinked one, two times. Not sure if she heard him right.

"I.. I want you Reze. All of you. I may not be all that but I really like you. If it's okay...

I can show you how much. But if not I respect your decision--"

Denji didn't finish his words when Reze pulled his shirt and slammed her lips on her,

"Show me how much you want me, Darling"

*******

Reze watched as Denji removed his shirt and ask her to lay on it, always the gentleman that he is.

He started to kiss her again, her hands roaming around Denji's body. She could feel the hard and rigid muscles he had built through the years, his lips travelled from her mouth, to her jaw then her neck.

Her hands went up to hold on his shoulders

"Reze, I want to mark you" She gasped and due to her surprise she just nodded.

As soon as Denji got her approval, he bit , suck and licked that sensitive part of her neck that made her moan.

"Denji..."

At the same time his hands travelled to her body, she could feel as if he's memorizing every curve and angle. He unbuttoned her white shirt and pulled down her shorts, then when she was just in her bra and undies he stared at her.

She never felt insecure with her body due to the missions she was assigned before but something about the look on Denji's face made her want to cover herself.

This is very different when they swam in that pool. She was at his mercy right now

Her hands were about to cover her chest when Denji grabbed it

"No Reze, You don't hide from me. Not anymore"

"I ugh.. I know my boobs are not as big as Makima's--" She didn't know why she had to voice out her insecurity

"No. It's not" Jealousy starting to creep in

"Yours is Perfect" He stated a matter of factly.
as he cupped one of her boobs in her bra and squeezed it.

Denji unclasped her bra and didn't wasted time to put one on his mouth that made Reze arched her back. He rolled one of her nipples in his hand while he feasted on the other.

She could feel a buildup going on down there, it's been awhile since she had an orgasm. She closed her eyes ready fo feel

As if Denji sensing and smelling her arousal he stopped, she felt annoyed and opened her eyes just to see him look at her with adoration.

"Tonight is all about you Reze, I'll make you feel good"

He then peeled her panties from her and what shocked her is seeing denji scrunching it up putting it on his nose, sniffing it as if his life depended on it.

"You smell fantastic Reze." He spoke.
Then he kneeled between her thighs, he lifted them to his shoulder angling his face to her lips down there.

"Denji.." Her words died in her throat as Denji licked a strip from her back to the front.

He feasted on her as if she was his last meal, she felt herself getting wet more as he teased a finger to her entrance

Her hands was on his hair pulling as he buried his face to her womanhood. She felt his two fingers go inside her, combined with his tongue she can feel an orgasm building up.

"Denji oh my god don't stop!!"

Her hips suddenly thrusting to his face to meet his speed. And as soon as Denji found that spot inside her, he started rubbing and giving her clit much attention.

As she can't take it anymore she let go, stars bursted in her head, she screamed for Denji's name. Her eyes rolling with how intense her orgasm was, but Denji didn't stop.

He's still licking and sucking. Drinking her juices like a madman.

As they both calmed down, she wanted to give back to him she was about to stand up when Denji stopped her.

"I want to be inside you Reze" As his honey colored eyes plead to her forest ones.

"Denji. I .. I'm not a virgin anymore" She says defeatedly. She lost it at an early age--

"I slept with some men for certain missions"

"It doesn't matter. What matters is now" she could feel her eyes watering.

"Okay" That was the only words she could form as Denji took the last of his clothing.

She had seen naked men, different kinds but something about Denji made her heart flutter.

Maybe because she has feelings for him, but
he really is a beautiful man.

She looked at his thing, he's well endowed for a man of his built.

She watched him give himself a pump or two before settling between her legs,

"I'll pull out I promise" he says "Then if you want me to stop tell me and I will. No matter how much I want this, your needs are more important than mine"

She wants to cry, because Reze's previous experiences with men were either just for misisons or because she had to survive.

She held Denji's face and hooked both of her legs to him.

"I want this too Denji, Don't worry I won't get pregnant."

He looked confused but didn't ask.

He grabbed his thing and slide it with her arousal, she moaned with the contact.

As if he felt she's ready he aligned his manhood to her entrance, and just as he was about to put it in...

He leaned on to her and said

"I love you Reze." and thrusted all the way to hilt.

Chapter Text

Reze has been living in a bliss since Denji came back to her life.

After that night of confession, the days that came after were just filled with happiness and contentment.

She and Denji shared stories of what happened with their lives during those years they missed out on each other.

She was happy Denji got to experienced to be in High School , he told her about how excited he was wearing the school uniform.

He even bragged about being chainsawman.

Even though that part wherein he asks for pennies from the High School girls made her uncomfortable and irritated.

Denji is a goodlooking young guy, he may seem weird and awkward with the ladies but his looks and height can make someone blush at the first meeting. He mentioned a kid he lived with, Nayuta.

Whom he honestly said he adored deeply, she loves dogs and currently in Tokyo with his friend named Asa.

No matter how cruel the world is to Denji, she admired him for his resilience and kindness. He still has a heart to help mankind when they're the reason he grew up in that circumstances.

She wished it was always like this but as the saying goes, 'You can't have everything'

Except Reze didn't want everything, she just wanted some things. Was the world too cruel to give her a slight chance of a Happily Ever After?

Because sadly, they found her.

Reze remembered the day she got that message.

*Three Days Earlier*

The shop got busy and was filled with groups of tourists, Denji was asked by Nagato san to help him in the kitchen so Reze has been the one cleaning the tables while taking orders.

It was almost sunset when the last customers got out, she went to their table and noticed a white small envelope on top.

Oh no, they're leaving a tip. She hurriedly grabbed it and ran outside hoping the customers are still there but to no avail, there's none.

Just the busy bustling of the streets.

She went inside the shop and was about to tell Nagato san when she noticed there was a writing at the back..

Her blood turned cold upon reading the message. It was written in Russian, a language she knew very well.

"To Jane,
From Papa"

She knew this handwriting, seeing it again after some years brought her back to that dark and awful time in her life.

Jane, the name she chose to be called instead of 636. They never give names to the 'guinea pigs' they tested on only numbers.

A name she got from the only song she knew growing up in that hell.

A song that oddly gave her comfort in that hell.

A song that gave her a glimpse of hope that one day, she'll experience what Jane had in that song.

Her hands started to shake a little as she flipped the envelope and saw the seal, her suspicion being correct as her thumb stroke on that seal.

She carefully opened it thinking there might be some sort of powder trapped in it to hurt her,

But dread filled her upon seeing Photos of her and Denji the past few days they had been walking together out in the park, while working and even... Even the night wherein they..

A small note was left saying,

"Papa missed you Jane. I'll be coming for you"

They found her. She knew she couldn't hide forever but she wasn't expecting it to be this easy.

She knew they're livid at her for not only failing in her mission to get the Chainsaw Heart but also being captured by Makima.

She was supposed to be the ultimate weapon of destruction against Public Safety.

They wanted to control the hybrids as well as create more like her.

She never wanted to be a Hybrid, well at first it was the only thing she knew.

She was born and raised in that underground facility, was taught that she needed to become strong to survive the training and tests.

To become the bomb devil.

They told her being the Bomb devil is an honor because not everyone is capable to bind a contract with it. Countless lives have been lost in the trials done to become a hybrid.

But those people didn't care whether they die or not, for them they're just considered and called "Guinea Pigs"

She needs to device a plan on how she'll face them and even fight to kill them.
She had always wanted to set that laboratory blasted into bits. To erase it from this world, no child deserved to experienced what she did under their clasps.

They will not stop until they get a hold of her, Denji and the other hybrids.

She needed to try, even if it means it would cost her life in the process.

*Present*

"Ohayo Nagato san have you seen Denji?"

She woke up and didn't find him beside her, well after that night of confession they started sleeping next to each other.

Though sometimes Denji would offer to sleep on the floor to give her more space thinking he's taking a lot and squishing her, but she tells him that hearing his heartbeat is her kind of lullaby.

In which it is, hugging him and leaning towards his heartbeat listening to it calms her.

Knowing he's with her and not only in her dreams.

But she couldn't tell him that she rarely gets nightmares about her time in the training camp when he's sleeping beside her compared before.

Wherein she hears children crying and pleading for the people to stop what they're doing to them. But they don't stop, they're even smiling watching these children be in pain.

A Pain they have inflicted.

"I saw him past by awhile ago, seems like he's in a rush. "

"Did he say where he was going?"

"Not specifically, but he just mentioned going to the train station"

Train Station? Why? Is he leaving?
He wouldn't, would he?

'You don't get to be mad at him leaving you when you plan to do so yourself'

Her mind tells her, Shut up! I'm doing it for him, for his safety and happiness.

'But you are his happiness, a huge part of it'

She pushed the thought away, now is not the time to think of it. Right now she needs to make sure to give Denji some of the best memories of his life, a whole week atleast before she executes her plan.

She sees him first, his back to her. She started to run and call out his name when suddenly--

A girl ran towards him hugged him, so tight and familiar. She's almost the same age as him,
she's wearing a dress, her black hair neatly braided with a full bangs framing her cute face.

Now they're facing eachother, giving Reze a glimpse of Denji.

She's almost as tall as him, kind of the opposite of her with Denji. She's more in the petite and short side

He hugged her back, the look as if ..

As if they were lovers who haven't seen each other for a long time

Another girl emerges on the side, she looked younger than the other one. She has a husky with her, she ran towards Denji and hugged him next.

Denji lifted her and twirl around laughing, happy to see the kid.

He put her down and ruffled her hair, like it's a normal thing they do.

In a stranger's point of view they look like a happy family, or atleast a couple who's going on a date but needed to bring the sibling with them.

It hurts seeing Denji smile to another female that's not her, call her the possessive and jealous type but she does want Denji for herself.

Maybe because Denji was the first person to treat her like a normal human being after she became a Hybrid.

That he chose her.

Finally someone chose to be with her despite having someone like Makima manipulating him.

So the idea of someone being with him gets her pissed and all jealous.

She knows he has friends or made some but it still hurts. Thinking they know or have a part of Denji that she'll never get to have.

They're talking and smiling, Denji's blushing while scratching his head.

Why is he blushing?

She was so into observing her and Denji when she forgot about the kid until she heard,

"Is that her Denji?"

The kid with two braids pointed at her making Denji and the other girl turn to her.

Denji looked surprised to see her in the train station, but before they could say anything,

She run.

She could hear Denji calling her but ignored and just ran to where she felt the safest and at peace.

"The day of my date with Jane
Everything is ready
In the morning, we will go to church together
We will drink coffee and eat omelets at a café"

Reze sang in front of the Lavender fields while sitting in Hinode Park. She had always loved going here, the flowers reminded her that despite every bad thing in life there is still beauty in the world we live in.

"After we take a walk in the park
We'll go to the aquarium and see Jane's favorites the dolphins and penguins
After lunch, we'll rest
So, what did we do in the morning?"

She closed her eyes remembering the person who taught her this song.

'Reze you are more than just the bomb devil,
Live for me. As a Human, not a Devil.

The last words she heard from the person who showed her kindness before Denji.

"We'll talk about it until we forget
We won't remember
And at night, we will sleep in the church"

A tear slid down from her eye remembering her Mama's face before those monsters took her away.

"We can always go to the aquarium and see the dolphins and penguins, If you'd like"

As Denji sat beside her and held her hand.