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“Have you considered the possibility that Neil has chosen you, but believes you have not chosen him?” Renee says. "Have you ever explicitly told him what you want?”
“Neil knows what I want,” Andrew snaps. This is not Andrew’s fault.
“How do you know?”
Because Neil always knows. He is as fluent in Andrew’s micro-expressions as he is in German and French. He knows which head tilts mean “go on” and which ones mean “shut up.” Without ever asking, he learned what it meant to see Andrew wearing double layers of long sleeves, or taking multiple showers in a day, and learned to hand Andrew the car keys.
That has always been the most terrifying thing about Neil — his patience to wait, watch, listen, learn. The prospect that if Neil were given enough time, there would be no part of Andrew that was just Andrew’s anymore.
“He has to know,” Andrew says.
“Does he?” Renee says. “Have you ever known Neil to assume that he is wanted?”
Five times Neil tells someone that he and Andrew aren’t dating, and one time Andrew uses his words to set the record straight.
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30 Nov 2025
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the solidification of a mirage by beyondtheclose (BeforeEternity)
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
10 Jul 2024
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“I’m going to ask you something potentially personal,” Andrew warns. He says it like a statement but looks to Neil before continuing.
Neil nods distractedly, still processing Andrew’s words, turning them over in his mind as if he looks at them from a different angle, they’ll make sense. Like if he stares at them long enough, they’ll snap into place with the rest of Neil’s life.
“What did you mean when you said you’re a girl?”
“Just that. I’m a girl.” The words have never tasted less true. And they never particularly did to begin with. “I’ve been pretending to be a guy for…reasons.”
Neil joins some language clubs, makes some friends, and learns that being trans is an option.
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29 Nov 2025
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Allison: ok look I have an idea
Neil: oh no
Allison: you’re not going to love it
Neil: I already said oh no
Allison: we should sign you up to tinder!
Neil: …how do you leave whatsappSeries
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14 Nov 2025
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“Andrew doesn't love me,” Neil said simply, “So if he has a love language, I don't know it.”
“Oh, honey.” Allison drawled, “You don't actually believe him when he says he hates you, do you?”- Language:
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13 Nov 2025
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The smile splitting Neil’s face in two is a soft thing, gentle and wonderful and the most genuine the expression has ever felt settled into his mouth. “I think you like putting up with me”
“Shut up”
“Make me,” Neil tells him.
“Marry me,” Andrew replies.
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