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Wolves Will Keep You Warm (I heard you burnt yourself again) by ilostmygenderalongwithmydignity
Fandoms: Call of Duty (Video Games), Call of Duty: Modern Warfare II (2022), Modern Warfare 2: Ghost (Comic)
16 Jan 2026
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Looking up at the night sky gives the impression that stars are cold— pinpricks of light of different tints and sizes. They aren’t, though. They are just as hot as our own sun, just tempered by distance and the vacuum of space.
Being one of those point of light means being careful not to burn the people you shine brightly for.
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The base’s water heater, backup, and heating system all go out. A pilot light needs protection to survive.
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- Part 2 of The Hound and the Flame
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Greater Need by ilostmygenderalongwithmydignity
Fandoms: Batman: Under the Red Hood (2010), Red Hood/Arsenal (Comics)
09 Nov 2025
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Jason is adjusting to being connected to Gotham, but it’s not the most pleasant experience. He’s restless, something only partially helped by him going back out as Red Hood. He needs to get moving to silence the buzz under his skin, but that very buzz is making it hard to concentrate.
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Jack wakes up and Roy comes back :)
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- Part 7 of Jason Wolfboy Hours
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Bandage Up the Trenches, Wash Away the Blood on my Hands by ilostmygenderalongwithmydignity
Fandoms: Call of Duty (Video Games), Modern Warfare 2: Ghost (Comic), Call of Duty: Modern Warfare II (2022)
03 Oct 2025
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Ghost is a machine, a glorified automaton for the military to use to clean up messes around the world. He is supposed to complete missions and immediately move on to the next one– and he does.
Simon Riley is supposed to be dead. He is a burned body under a headstone from almost a decade ago.
His heart still beats.
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Ghost gets stabbed, and realizes he’s a little bit in love about it
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- Part 1 of The Hound and the Flame
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Here Stands a Man with a Bullet in his Clenched Right Hand by ilostmygenderalongwithmydignity
Fandoms: Simon Dark (Comics), Batman: Under the Red Hood (2010)
31 Jul 2025
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Spoiler says hi, Robin imitates a gargoyle, Black Bat makes a friend, Red Robin (briefly) goes full mafia family, Nightwing gets lectured, and Batman seeks parenting advice.
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While Jason recovers and gets used to his new place in the city, his family introduce themselves to Simon’s people. Conversations are had, both trivial and important.
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- Part 6 of Jason Wolfboy Hours
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This City’s Been Dead For Years by ilostmygenderalongwithmydignity
Fandoms: Batman: Under the Red Hood (2010), Simon Dark (Comics)
22 Jul 2025
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“Lurks in shadows, hides in the park.
Simon. Simon.
Simon Dark.If you’re good, he’ll stay away
If you’re bad, he’ll make you payLurks in shadows. Hides in the park.
Simon. Simon.
Simon Dark.”Constantine introduces Jason to the subject of a jump rope rhyme, opening the door to a new world contained in Gotham. The rot goes deep, farther than the Bats’ love for the city can penetrate on its own. But Gotham loves her children, no matter how much she knows she drags them down with her.
AKA I introduce the crew of the Simon Dark comics because I love them very much, and get carried away talking about infrastructure and invent a magic system in the process.
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- Part 5 of Jason Wolfboy Hours
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The Hound and the Flame by ilostmygenderalongwithmydignity
Fandom Call of Duty (Video Games), Call of Duty: Modern Warfare II (2022), Modern Warfare 2: Ghost (Comic)
16 Jan 2026
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Jason Wolfboy Hours by ilostmygenderalongwithmydignity
Fandom Batman: Under the Red Hood (2010), Red Hood and the Outlaws (Comics), Red Hood/Arsenal (Comics), Simon Dark (Comics)
09 Nov 2025
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Once the fire was crackling, Simon pulled out the hot dogs he’d brought. Tomorrow, he’d fish. But for tonight, he wanted something easy. He roasted the hot dogs until they were slightly charred, the smell of them mingling with the wood smoke in the cool evening air. When he was done, he made sure the fire was completely out and crawled into his tent for the night. Unaware that he was being watched.
Soap had always been too curious for his own good. From the moment he was a pup, his family had made sure to remind him of that fact. His mother, especially, had often scolded him for poking around places he wasn’t supposed to be, or for sneaking off to watch things he had no business observing.
aka: Wolf Shifter 141 and human Ghost
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No one knows what Soap is.
It is, in theory, a simple question and answer. Ghost, however, knows how difficult that simple back-and-forth can become when information has the power to kill - his identity is a secret for the men he fights beside, for his own safety, for the country he serves. A simple question, what’s your name, is a game of mystique for every vampire when it inevitably comes calling; but vampiric name traditions are well known. No one knows his name, but they all know he’s beholden to it, that any who whisper it will call him home. They know why they don’t know his name.
No one knows what Soap is. And no one knows why.
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15 Jan 2026
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Ghost lets himself be pulled up slightly, his hand just as steady on Soap's thigh. "That what you need, Johnny?" he asks, licking his lips behind the balaclava. Soap’s eyes drop to his mouth, flick back up. "You wanna draw blood? Be in control?"
"Lt–" Soap starts, lips parted on a rough exhale. A plea or a warning, Ghost can't tell. He's too focused on the way Soap's pupils dilate, and the way the edge of the knife digs into the fabric at his throat.
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When Graves rears his head not ten days after Las Almas Ghost starts questioning Soap's loyalty, and with it whatever's left of his own sanity.
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15 Jan 2026
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ABSOLUTELY*KRAKEN*MYM'FINGHOG by fockenWIMDY, Monsterlice, toomanybats for Soapedghost
Fandoms: Call of Duty (Video Games)
22 Dec 2025
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Of course there's always the muscle and the beautiful eyes and the every other tiny thing that has kept Ghost strung along in the last year and a half since Soap first walked up and demanded to be allowed to try for the 141. That's a part of it, Ghost knows. The drive, the determination to be the best without even taking into account his natural advantages when shifted into…whatever it is he becomes. Soap has always been cagey about that. But Ghost has always been attracted to competence, and this insolent, insubordinate little shit is also probably the single most competent soldier Ghost has ever had the good luck to work with.
And then there's the fact Soap is a hybrid. A damned powerful one at that.
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The predator in him can't deny the inherent thrill of having prey so close; the satisfaction of remaining undetected is a high he'll never get sick of. Though he's strictly human, Ghost is stealthier by far than any other Soap has met. It's probably why he's so pathetically infatuated with the man. He mentally shakes himself, returning to the mission at hand as he and Ghost both watch the men beneath them until they enter a door and are out of sight.
Then they move.
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Unable to die, there’s not much that Ghost has left to give.
Apart from himself.