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    “I… don’t know how to say this,” Shane starts, slow, like he’s speaking to a wounded animal. “Honestly, I’m not sure how she found us, really. Maybe you should sit down, baby.”

    But Ilya doesn’t get a second to sit down, because the door behind Shane is opening, and Ilya is turning around, and—

    Zdravstvuyte,” says the girl. “Uncle Ilya?”

    Sometime in the future, Ilya & Shane have a visitor.

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    Someone asked Rozanov a question that June missed because of her wandering eye. She chastized herself. What was the point of a journalist who didn't actually take note of what was being said?

    "Our strategy has been to focus on fundamentals. Without Hollander on the second line, it—oh, hi, Sonya."

    June's ears perked up. Sonya? Rozanov leaned down behind the table as if he'd dropped something, and when he came back up, it was with a little girl June recognized as Sofia Hollander-Rozanov. Rozanov got her settled in his lap, kissed her cheek, and looked out to the room.

    June's a small-time sports journalist at a small-time publication, frustrated with what she's assigned to cover. She's expecting another dry post-game press conference from Ilya Rozanov... and then something unexpected happens.

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    “Which one is yours?”

    Shane scans the ice for his daughter’s jersey number. Ilya had been really smug about it when they brought it home. She has your last name, Hollander, he’d said, let her have my number if she wants. Is better, anyway.

    “That one,” he says, pointing at the clump of white jerseys. “Number 81. Mila.”

    “Oh you’re Mila’s dad!” The woman looks delighted. “I’m Maddie’s mom. Jane.”

    She holds her hand out, and Shane has to bite back a grin. He takes her hand.

    “Shane,” he says, shaking it. “Nice to meet you.”

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    “Y-Yeah, totally,” Shane replied. “D-Do you uh– do you know who that kid with Rozanov is?”

    Scott laughed a little, tilting his head in confusion.

    “Probably Rozanov’s kid,” he informed Shane, causing his brain to stall completely.

    “You didn’t hear?” Scott asked, and Shane blinked, trying to reboot his mind from the crash that Scott had just caused. “It’s why he took time off,” Hunter informed him. “Found out he had a kid, I guess. Or something like that, I didn’t really get the details.”

    Of all the reasons he’d thought of for Ilya disappearing for the past month, this had never crossed his mind. A million different thoughts raced through Shane’s mind. How the hell was Ilya a dad, and why hadn’t he told Shane and how the fuck did Scott Hunter of all people find out before him and—

    And what the fuck was Shane supposed to do now?

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    After the tuna melt situation, Ilya suddenly disappears from hockey for six weeks, claiming some sort of family emergency. Shane showed up to the All-Star game ready to try and fix things, only to be shocked to find a little girl at Ilya's side with remarkably familiar blue eyes.

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    “Ilya,” he clarified, wincing as he swallowed, his throat feeling like he’d eaten a fistful of glass. “I need to call Ilya.”

    He fumbled around for his phone, desperately needing to hear his fiance’s voice. Together, they could figure this out. They’d make a plan. Ilya could drive with his parents from Ottawa and–

    But Ilya wasn’t in Ottawa. He was in Russia.

    No.

    No.

    They’d kill Ilya in Russia. They’d kill him, or arrest him, or– or–

    Oh god, they’d kill him.
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    A family emergency means Ilya is in Russia when Hayden's FanMail video ends up on Twitter, outing them to the entire world. It, predictably, ends horribly.

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