stollenwurm
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for the first time of everything by stollenwurm
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
14 Dec 2025
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The first thing his beating heart ever does is lie, announcing to the world that Hikaru Indou is alive.
He absolutely doesn’t belong here, without a soul of his own. His insides roll and quiver in a hungry void, completely out of place with the twinkling lights of the human souls all around him. Even the animal souls nearby keep their distance. He shouldn’t be here. He doesn’t feel like he’s allowed to be here.
He’s happy he is anyway.
Or: “Hikaru’s” first six months alive.
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Dissecting Intimacy by stollenwurm
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
26 Oct 2025
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Humans are complex. Monsters are rather simple.
What does that make you?
“I don’t want ya to force yourself to be human,” Yoshiki says again. “So if it helps…”
You nod, eyes wide. Your insides shiver in anticipation. Even just the prospect of it has you excited. It’s lame, it’s so lame, but you can’t be bothered to care.
“Yeah,” you hear yourself say. “Let’s do it.”
Or: Love can be difficult when your love is not quite human.
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love bound by instinct by stollenwurm
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
19 Oct 2025
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Is it selfish to accept this love, if Hikaru never had any choice but to feel it?
“Yoshiki, look! Mincemeat cutlets!”
“What’re ya talking about?” Yoshiki squints against the blinding snow through his bangs. The snowfall is thin and wet. It’ll probably be gone by tomorrow, but the cold seeps into Yoshiki’s core. Winter has come early this year.
It’ll have been a year soon. So soon. Just a few more weeks.
Time refuses to stop, more of a monster than anything else Yoshiki has encountered.
Or: Yoshiki grapples with whether or not “Hikaru” has the autonomy to truly love him if his companionship is the result of fulfilling a wish.
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A person is made of three parts: a heart, a body, and a soul. At the end of everything, the heart and body will perish. But the soul persists.
He’s seen the end of the world more than once now. Individual worlds. His own personal world. The world, even. So it comes as a bit of a shock to find that all of existence has come to an end. Actually, for real this time. No last ditch heroic efforts. No do-overs.
The greater surprise is the fact that he’s not alone.
Or: When existence ends, Sora finds that only his soul remains to travel through an abstract mosaic of grief and thought. And as it turns out, while Roxas had formed his own heart and was given his own body, the two of them continued to share one soul.
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I’ll Choose Today by stollenwurm
Fandoms: Final Fantasy VII (Video Game 1997), Final Fantasy VII Remake and Rebirth (Video Games 2020-2024), Compilation of Final Fantasy VII
08 Feb 2025
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It's because he’s like Zack.
And he is. It’s uncanny. He’s just like Zack. Except for in all the ways he isn’t. Which is most of him.
He’s like a cat. One that’s fallen clumsily from a table and landed squarely on its rump rather than gracefully on its feet like reputation demands. One that immediately begins grooming itself as if to deny any lapse in dignity. It’s fine, nothing happened. No slip ups, no mistakes, what are you talking about? Stop looking.
But she can’t stop looking.
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The Algal Bloom by anodymalion
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
07 Dec 2025
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He crosses his arms around his chest, hunching over himself. "So, um. Is it... real different than bein' in a human body?"
It clicks at him again. There's an answering shiver in Yoshiki's ribs, a mix of fear and itchy curiosity. Against his better judgement he inches forward, lifting his hand into the space between them. The thing tracks his movements with a noiseless twitch.
"Do you feel other things the same, too? Like... if I touch you, can you feel it?"
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08 Dec 2025
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TOXOPLASMOSIS by anodymalion
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
19 May 2025
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"You know," Hikaru says. "If the heat's too much of a problem, I can make myself colder. I could be, like, an icepack for you, if you want."
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(About prey imagery, instinctive fears, sharing a bed, and the strange physicality of having a body.)
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05 Nov 2025
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given half a chance by lunatea (phantomile)
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
08 Aug 2025
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The moment Yoshiki awakens, he knows exactly where he is and what he’s done.
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27 Oct 2025
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Ooof ow ouch perfect, perfect characterization. Extremely real, extremely powerful ;-; <3
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all magic halted by boracynth for Ezray
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
20 Oct 2025
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“He would never have done this,” says Yoshiki.
“Done what?” says Hikaru.
“Kissed me,” says Yoshiki.
Or: A teenage boy's complicated, lingering grief and the eldritch monster who loves him.
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24 Oct 2025
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Heliotrope by Waiting_for_a_sunny_day
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
28 Nov 2025
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“Sorry, Yoshiki,” Hikaru groans as tears come out of one eye and more of him comes out of the other. “Ughh, I don’t – ”
Yoshiki can see how hard he’s trying to calm himself down, but it just isn’t working.
“It’s ok,” Yoshiki says, quiet. “It’s ok. Instead of shovin’ it back inside completely, can you try just...lettin’ it out? Just a little bit?”
He has no clue how any of this works, but maybe a half-measure is better than trying to force it all at once.
“Okay,” Hikaru says, but it sounds like a sob. More of the unknowable, incomprehensible swirl leaks out into the dark room.
“Yoshiki – shit – ‘m sorry but can I…” Hikaru’s face – what’s visible behind the bloom of him – twists in a small kind of agony. “Can I touch you? Not much. Just – ”
It's been years since Hikaru first took the body of Yoshiki's dead best friend. Despite everything - every horror and hurt - they managed to find a home in each other. Not quite friends or family. More and not. What they have is complicated, but precious.
But when Yoshiki escapes their small town – to college, to Tokyo – Hikaru follows. And things start to change for them both.
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- Part 1 of Heliotrope AU