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Chapter 1

Darkness surrounds you and it’s quiet just a few more minutes you thought to yourself and you were right. Within a few minutes the alarm rings and just like clockwork the lights turn on in the room and you are up making your way to the bathroom, you freshen up ready to start the day.

The door opens and you walk through the long corridor to the large dining hall, everyone is talking and eating their food. You walk up to the counters, grab yourself an apple, a sandwich and a cup of tea, make your way to an empty table and sit there in silence. 

You weren’t the friendliest person to be around and people were just afraid of you because you have been here longer than most of the agents your age, you were known to be ruthless, you pulled out your knife and started cutting the apple, you don’t mind being alone, you didn’t like talking so much and you found it annoying when you were always partnered with someone that would never shut up or asked to many questions. 

Your watch goes off with a beep meaning you were called by the boss probably to assign you a mission, you took the tray discarding the rubbish and making your way to her office, you are hoping that this would be a solo mission and not be paired up with some lousy partner. 

You walk into the office “aaa… there you are Y/n, come in have a seat” she cleared her throat and pointed at the chair in front of her desk. “Alright Y/n we have a mission for you, management wanted to set you up with a partner but I prefer you do this solo” you smirk, thanking whatever gods out there that I would do this alone, no distractions, no talkative partners. 

“Who do I have to kill this time?” you said, you hear a laugh coming from behind you “You were not joking about her” you turn around and see a man in what looks like a very expensive suit “I finally get to meet you Y/n, I have heard nothing but excellent things about you, you are one of the best agents here and watching you grow up is something beautiful you have grown from a young and helpless duckling to this stunning swan…your training and skills are what got you to pass all the tests that were placed your way” you stiffened “What tests?” you look at the man and your boss, your boss points at the chair “have a seat agent” 

“I’m fine standing, thank you” 

“Deadly and polite, that is truly interesting” the man has a wide smile on his face just eying you from top to bottom  

Your boss sighs “we put multiple agents yourself included to the test through different missions to see if they were capable in doing this mission and to be honest with you, only you and Kara were able to succeed in these tests” 

“You two have all the abilities and skills that I require for this mission” the man spoke

“I thought you said this was a solo mission” you don’t mind Kara she was a pro at what she does, you've been on a few missions with her and she is one of the partners you actually liked working with, you both made a good team but she was just like you mostly doing missions solo. 

“It is…both of you will be in different locations but it will be handling the same assignment” as soon as she said that, the office’s door opens and Kara walks in “sorry I was late, I just finished with my mission handovers” Kara nods at you and you do the same “I’m partnering up with Y/n again, who are we killing this time?” the man in the suit laughs again “you never told me your agents were that eager”

“What can I say, we train them well” your boss puts her hands up smiling from ear to ear. 

“It’s a long mission, we want you to retrieve information from different bases one located in Russia that will be your location Y/n and Kara you will be going to the base located in the US…we want you to get us all database from these bases, we want all the intel you can get this is why the mission is a long one, we want you to observe the movements, get us floor plan of the base and other bases, we want everything”

You both nod agreeing with the boss orders

“You heard the lady, girls” that word makes you cringe “I need all the information you can get me and knowing that you two girls” that word again infuriates you “are the best in the organization right now I don’t expect anything but perfection, the information you would get me is very sensitive and valuable, if you are found out you will be a targeted and the organization will not handle any responsibility”

You both say nothing but nod “You may leave and get ready for your mission ladies” you both leave the office and Kara spoke breaking the silence “looks like you are going back to Russia, are you okay?” you keep walking, thinking about her words, were you really okay about this but you don’t have a say in this, you were given your orders “I don’t know, haven’t given it much thought” you finally answer her “Yeah? I know you have a history with that place, I can tell the boss to switch the locations”

“No! orders are orders Kara you know that, it’s alright but thank you” you were close to only four agents in this whole organization, having been through what you’ve been through you have learned not to let your walls down and let people into your life. 

*

Russia was nothing new, the same cold weather, the apartment you based camp in was the same you always used whenever you had a mission in Russia, to your luck it was close to the location you are supposed to infiltrate. 

You have observed the shift change, the weapons, the comings and goings of the trucks, you would use your abilities in the darkness to your advantage.

It was not part of the mission but you and Kara would share intel and that is when you notice the similar information about the change of shifts it was like clockwork as if they were robots not humans, are you going against robots? The first shift changes at 06:00 and the next is at 18:00 exactly twelve hours on the dot, Kara states the same thing she also points out the ins and the outs of the trucks that they are leaving early morning empty and after sunset will be full of something that’s not clear, you both guess weaponry, nuclear bombs, you didn’t know yet neither did Kara, you both were still gathering info from the outside, the man in the suit did say that if caught we’ll be targets and you can’t let that happen, that was not how you were trained and getting caught was basically a huge failure. “How's Russia treating you? You okay?” Kara asks

“I never really thought about it, I’m pretty busy with the whole mission so, there was no trip down memory lane” she looks at you “you sure, I know how horrible that place makes you feel, so I find it really hard that you didn’t think about anything” you shrug “nothing seriously” you didn’t know how to feel being in Russia makes you uncomfortable, the pain, the struggle and the hurt was overwhelming but you didn’t let that get to you, you have a mission and you need to focus “earth to Y/n”

“Yeah, I’m fine I have been focusing on the mission mostly” you shift in your seat 

“I know you are lying but I’ll let this slide because it’s making you uncomfortable but when we get to HQ I will eat your head about it”  you both smile “whatever Kara” you both say your goodbyes and hang up the call. 

One month in, you walk into the grocery store you grab a few items while waiting for your turn to the cashier you see a man struggling with the cashier “do you have this item…this item, I want it” the man is pointing at his phone, the cashier is just looking at this man like he was crazy, you walk to the cashier and say “u vas yest' etot punkt” the cashier looks at the you as you point to the man’s phone, he looks at the device and nods he walks off to retrieve the items “thank you” he looks at you, you smile “not a problem, sir” showing his pearly whites “another English speaker, god finally” you smile “I’m Dr. Hanks, Matthew Hanks” he puts his hand out for you shake you observe him he looks to be around early thirties, tall and thin, he was wearing a lanyard and the logo on the card was the same as the base you were scouting your suspicions were right bingo , you smile shaking his hand “Emmy” the cashier comes back with the item that Matthew needs he pays and turns to look at you “thank you so much, hope I can see you around” you wave “that would be nice”.

You keep scouting the base and you have made friends with Dr. Hank, you went out for coffee on different occasions and you just let him talk about himself and he was happy to do so, he was trying so hard to impress you. You invite him to the pub and he got to a stage of being a little to inebriated and you are being very careful not to get drunk “so what kind of experiments do you do, Dr. sounds like you are a really important up there” you finally ask him hoping after all this time you have spent together, he would tell you something, you pass him a drink, he smiles “that is highly classified, girlie” that word infuriates you but you continues “I love it when you talk about your projects, you seem so passionate and sexy” his smile widens there we go he chugs the drink “well how about we get out of here and I can tell you all about it at my place, this place it too crowded…it’s too risky” we are in you lean against the table showing more of your cleavage and just like you would have guessed that exactly were his eyes were, you reach to his ear and whisper “I thought you would never ask” he beams looking mischievous. 

You reach his apartment and once the door shut his hand wraps around you like a snake around its prey, his lips meet yours and you play along, your hands cup his face “you are so damn hot girlie” he drags you to his room he sits on his bed pulling you to sit on his lap both your lips are dancing wildly as he lays down letting you top him, you crawl to his ear “who’s a good boy?” his breathing is heavy “I am” you grind on him he groans “now tell me all about it big boy, I’m all ears” you smile grinding again making him grab your hips forcing you to grind again “you are killing me here girlie” 

You lean and give him kisses starting from his jaw moving all the way to his lips “we create weapons and serums” you grind over his bulge pressing harder this time letting a moan escape you and that seems to ignite him, he grabs you by the waist and flips you around having him top you “you are driving me crazy girlie” you pull him towards you and start kissing him “that sounds hot Dr. “ he smiles “we sell our weapons…and serums to the highest bidding organizations” he breaks away taking deep breaths and starts kissing you again “and keep some for ourselves to enhance our soldiers” his hand is on your right breast squeezing hard you moan “my sexy Dr. is so important…tell...tell me how important you are” both of his hands are on your breasts “I make the serums that are injected into the soldiers…they make the soldiers strong” 

“Like Captain America” you flip him and you are on top again you unbuckle his belt slipping your hand inside his jeans you start rubbing through the fabric of his boxers he moans “n…n…no…we haven’t…perf…perfected it like…that…yet” you add a little more pressure and move your hands framing his bulge “damn it girlie, your hands are heaven” he pulls you for a kiss “we enhance our soldiers make…them stronger than…an…an…average man but not a super soldiers, god damn girlie…please you are killing me” your hands move through the boxers grabbing his shaft moving up and down, his head sinks in the bed his hands grip your hips 5…4…3…2…1 and his hands drop.

You get off him and start looking in his apartment, you notice a laptop “alright, let’s see what you got for me Dr.” password protected of course you pull out a flash drive and plug it in, you let the rest take care of itself, it turns on “let’s take a look” you go through it and it has some valuable information, you put in the code and all the information is being gathered and saved in the hard drive, once that was done you starts taking pictures of the graphs, papers that are all over his desk and the documents that are on the wall.

You walk up to the Dr. and start undressing him throwing his clothes next to the bed “sorry Dr. but a job is a job”

*

“I’ll be going in tonight” I said looking through the binoculars, the soldiers were unloading the boxes from the trucks, you still can’t tell what type of weapons they have “do you think we got all the information Y/n, remember what the guy in the suit said…” I nod “We will be targets and they will not be responsible for our safety, I remember that loud and clear Kara” you pull back and look at the computer Kara looks right back at you taking a deep breath “I have a bad feeling about this Y/n” you couldn’t help but agree with her, you have been on so many missions but none made you feel like this “I don’t know what we are going to face but be careful Kara, this may seem like a huge shock to you but I care about you” she laughs “why does this feel like a goodbye?”

“It’s not you muppet, I’m just telling you to be careful that is all, don’t read much into it” she laughs again “you too mate, even though this still feels like a goodbye” you shake your head “I’ll be heading out Kara but seriously take care and be careful we don’t know what we are heading into” she nods “you’re right, you too muppet take care and be careful, it’s been nice working with you” you smile “this sounds more like an actually goodbye” she laughs “okay, okay sorry for being sentimental” we talk a bit about what we will be doing in the mission and then hang up the call. 

You inform your boss that you will be going into the base tonight “Copy that Y/n once you have the information send us the signal and we will send you your pick up” Kara’s words are playing in your head I have a bad feeling about this but orders are orders you can’t disobey them. 

Tonight is the night, you have memorized the floor plan of the base, you need to head to the server room to retrieve the rest of the information that your boss and the man in the suit need. You change into your suit and strap on all your weapons. 

The base is right in front of you, making your way to the fence knowing that this is a blind spot you start cutting through the fence, all the trucks have been parked beside each other and unloaded Shit! With all your stealth you make your way through the field, you hide whenever one of the soldiers would make their rounds in the location, you manage to make your way inside the building Okay now I need to find the server room it was too risky being on floor level the Dr. did mention they were super soldiers or something that is close and you wouldn’t be able to fight them all even with your skills plus it’s a risk you don’t want to take. 

You use the vents to make your way around areas that are swarmed with soldiers, you reach the desired floor This level is going to be heavily guarded you climb the vent again this was a lot harder than your thought the soldiers barely move from their posts, you reach the corridor where the server room is located at, two guards Because of course…fuck they were talking you eavesdrop on the conversation, they are talking about the serum nothing they said you didn’t already know, one of them told the other to cover for him as he steps out of sight. You wait, this was your opportunity you won’t have another one, you open the vent and take your shot at him he drops his weapon in shock, he pulls you from the vents and you fall hard you take that to you advantage and swipe your leg to throw the soldier off his balance he falls as you stand up with quick movements you were behind him and hands around his neck in a sleeper hold the tranquilizer is taking a longer time than expected, his grip on you is getting weaker as you tighten your grip around his neck he stands up and and backs up to the wall Son of a bitch but your hold on him was tighter, he repeated the move and this was harder this time you nearly let go Come on you bastard go down he is finally falling you stay a bit longer just in case and he is not moving, you use your ability to use his hand to gain access to the room and hide his body in of the surrounding rooms. 

You are in Finally the room is filled with servers, you move towards the PC and plug in the USB, you type in a few codes and the virus does the rest for you, it starts uploading everything to the USB while it loads you make sure to listen in your surroundings, everything sounds calm 60% come on…upload faster 66%...82%...come on you look at the bar that is moving so slowly it’s at 90%, you send the signal to your boss, you wait a few more seconds 100% Finally you type another code and unplug the USB you get a message from your boss to head to the roof your pick up will be there in eight minutes. You listen for any movement outside and you hear nothing, you open the door and it’s clear, you follow your floor plan you have memorized you make your way to the roof avoiding any soldiers that come your way, you look at your watch one minute left suddenly the alarms go off, this confuses you Did I trigger anything ? that’s impossible you see soldier in the field making their way to the building “ krysha” one of the soldiers screams Fuck…I’ve been made a helicopter finally comes to view My pick up you wave up, it lowers down and a ladder is thrown down you make your way up, you look up to see your mentor it felt odd why would she be here why would she be here for a pick up “hand me the usb Y/n” the soldiers are starting to shoot at the helicopter and myself “get us out of here, what is wrong with you?” you scream you pull out your weapon and start shooting at the soldiers “hand me the USB Y/n” you throw your gun and pull out the USB and hand it to her “I am sorry dear” I look at her in horror when she suddenly pulls out a knife and cuts the ladder “no” I grab her arm pulling her she was secure she looks at you with pain in her eyes “forgive me” she takes the knife and stabs your arm, you scream and let go falling as your “pick up” flees with the USB.

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 Chapter 2

Your eyes flutter open “prosypaysya suka” you feel a sharp pain on your face, you open your eyes adjusting to the light in the room. Everything played back, the mission, the USB, the alarm, the betrayal, that’s when you feel the pain in your arm you look at your arm the knife is no longer there but you notice being tied up and as a response you fight the restrains “ne soprotivlyaysya” said the soldier in front of you, once you look at him he takes your whole face in his massive hands you keep fighting the soldier pushes your face backwards making your head hit the wall “I wouldn’t fight the soldiers agent Y/l/n” a loud playful voice comes from behind the soldier that is holding your face.

“You don’t want to piss off the soldier, they ARE NOT like any of your targets in the past 17 years” you try to move your face from the soldier's painful grip “you don’t listen do you…they told me you were the stubborn one of the two” out of the two? “What! What two? “ 

“She speaks” he finally comes to view, it was the Dr. and an officer, the officer had a huge grin on his face when you saw the Dr. he waves “hello girlie” the soldier’s dropped his hand and went to punch you on the face, you grunt in pain and throws another punch to your ribs “ostanavlivat'sya” the officer spoke with high authority and the soldier followed the command he stops just looking at you through his mask. 

“What two?” you ask hoping to whatever god is out there that it’s not what you are thinking, he smiles walking towards you the soldier steps aside “awww look at you defenceless, weak and expendable” expendable! What did he mean by that? “What two you son of a bitch” he laughs “tsk…tsk…tsk…I would watch my language if I were you, the soldiers here don’t like that foul language” he grins 

“But I will humour you, since you belong to us now” you fight the restraints “I belong to no one” he cackled “ooh but you do agent, you belong to us, both of you belong to us now” No! Kara. He lifts his hands and snaps his fingers and a large screen appears on his left, you see Kara in restraints passed out all bloodied and bruised “If anything happens to her, you will beg me to kill you” he roared with laughter “like I was saying when your rudely interrupted agent Y/l/n, you and agent Delavenne belong to us now…that was the agreement” your eyes narrow at him “agreement? What agreement…what are you talking about?” the office laughs hysterically “you poor soul you…you were sold to us, I thought you were much smarter than that Y/n, you should have figured everything out, didn’t you find the mission a little suspicious” he is right in front of you right now what is he talking about sold, no way, your boss would not do that, they would not lose two of their best agents you start playing the scenarios in your head it didn’t make sense “they would never do that to us?” he cocks his head to the side 

“Really Y/n do you really think that…like I said didn’t you find it suspicious to have a mission with such little to no information about, are your really that naïve to think that it would be just a normal mission when all the missions that you have done were fully detailed no matter what it was, but to answer your dumb statement yes they would do that, especially when we were going to supply them with the serum” your eyes widen suddenly the words of your mentor I’m sorry dear, forgive me the officer laugh when they see your realization he was right, nothing clear was mentioned to you about this but the USB that should count for something right? “I’ll tell you this because it won’t make a difference anymore and I feel like oversharing today…plus it’s not like you will have any control anymore” the soldier throw punches at you  

“I swear once I get my hands on you I will rip you apart” you say through gritted teeth he laughs again “no you won’t haven’t you noticed already why aren’t you able to use your powers Y/n” you move your burning wrists against the restrains and nothing you look at your hands midnight glow forms and goes out immediately “too bad for ripping me apart” he teases you with a big smile on his face. “Your beloved organization gave us their best agents for some supply of the serum, you two are basically expendable to the place you have given everything for…and in your case Y/n this isn’t your first betrayal now so this shouldn’t hurt… right…but this is where you were raised, it was where you became the best agent…does it hurt? I’m curious” he was right in front of you, his hands lifted your chin for you to look at him “you belong to hydra now”.

Your built up with rage and spit blood on his face “I belong to no one you…” a fist collides with your face and then another, you were getting light headed, sharp pain shoots from your right thigh, a knife the same knife your mentor used, you scream as you keep getting assaulted “Y/n! No!” you heard your name Kara! “They are coming for us” Kara’s voice speaks from the speakers, your body is starting to give in from the beating, the soldier pulls the knife and stabs your other thigh, you scream “Y/n” Kara calls your name. 

“Let her go, take me, I’m more valuable to you” you speak through your pain, you lift your head to look at the officer “tempting offer Y/n but having you both is beneficial, have you seen your skill sets, you both are very valuable one to train my soldiers and the other to destroy the enemies…in case you couldn’t tell agent Y/l/n you are the destroyer” 

“Please! Let her go, I’ll do all you ask…just let her go…I’ll train the soldiers and I’ll do all of your work just let Kara go” the officer waved and the soldier continued beating you up “I didn’t take you for a beggar Y/n it doesn’t suit you…also Y/n we don’t beg here” the Dr. walked towards you with an injection in his hand, you have no strength to fight, the soldiers assaults are brutal you still find it in yourself to fight against the restrains “sorry, girlie, I don’t want to do this” the soldier punches you in the gut and holds you still, the needle pierce the skin of your neck and whatever is inside the vial is injected in your body within a few seconds the corners of your eyes are darkening and shortly before you pass out you hear the officer saying “take her away, we want to thicken her skin first before she is under our control” 

*

“Y/n…Y/n…wake up” you open your eyes and see a stranger “hey there angel…did you know you look so pretty when you are asleep” his hand cupped your cheeks “where is mama?” you crawl backwards until you hit the headboard “she went out for a bit and she told me to wake you so we can play together until she comes back” he is crawling towards you and started grabbing your leg “we will have so much fun” you struggle “mama…mama…” you scream “come on you little bitch” he is on top of you and can’t struggle, you are only a little girl “you are all mine now”

Your eyes open as soon you heard the loud bang on the door, two soldiers walk in and the Dr. follows behind them “good morning, girlie”, the soldiers grab you and drag you to the chains on the walls “I’m here to examine the severity of your injuries” you scoff “hey! I don’t want to do this okay, I didn’t want this to happen to you” you look up to see him and you see pain in his eyes “I shouldn’t be doing this but I can’t leave you in this condition” 

“Then you should leave, wouldn’t want you to get in trouble now would we” you said “I understand sarcasm, you know” he walked towards you placing the medical kit on the table beside you “ostavit' nas v pokoye” the soldiers walk out of the room listening to the Dr. “I managed to convince them to let me treat you” you smile “My hero” he pulled out a gauze and dipped it in alcohol, he walked towards you “I’m really not here to hurt you, girlie” you taking deep breaths, you couldn’t do anything about this, you were in chains and too weak to fight “can I?” he is looking at you for your approval, you just nod, you don’t want your wounds to get infected after all.

He grabs the hem of your shirt “can I have a look underneath, those punches weren’t easy to take” you take a deep breath you shake your head, he pulls your shirt up and starts pressing lightly on your torso, you would wince when he was pressed on your ribs “sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you, I just want to see how badly they hurt you” his touches were careful and every time you would get hurt he would apologise “why are you doing this?” you finally address the man that is in front of you

“Because as hard as it may seem for you to believe me…I-I…I care” he didn’t dare to look at you he just kept examining you, you didn’t say a word “I know it wasn’t real for you, the thing we had but…” he still isn’t looking at you but he is looking at your thighs cleaning the wounds, he cleared his throat “your friend is also being taken care off, I had my friend a Dr. to make sure she is okay” he changed the subject “I have seen her, she is stable and in better condition than you are to be frank” 

“Why can’t I use my powers?” My voice is weak, he continued to avoid looking at you “we injected you with something, it’s like a power blocker, we inject you with it every four hours” he walks to the table and pulls out an injection “no…noo…please…don’t…Dr…please” he looks at you with hurt in his eyes “I’m sorry, girlie…they will hurt me and you…you can’t handle them any longer, they are strong” the injection was aimed at your neck “I’m sorry” he whispered, he walks back to the table and put the injection back in the medical kit. 

“What are they going to do to me Matthew?” you took a sharp breath which hurt, he stopped what he was doing “T-they…they will take control of you and your friend” 

“Why take care of us if we are going to be under their control? How are they going to control us?” you pull at the restraints, he sighs “the officer that you saw a few months ago…” has it been months, have I really been locked up and tortured for months “...he is going to use the technology we created to control you and your friend…and before you ask me, yes it has been tested and it has worked, that’s how they control the soldiers”

“Is Kara hurt?” 

“Not as badly as you, you both have a large kill count each and combined Y/n it’s a big number and hydra needs people with your skill set, you follow orders without question, you are loyal and trained and with your powers, hydra can be unstoppable…but they know that you wouldn’t given in easily so they will make you…” he stands in front of you “it won’t hurt you or your friend…the process that is, when they place the tech on you, if that’s any consolation” 

“Why are you really doing this? Are you just playing with me just to fill your sick being the hero fantasy?” you scream at him 

“What? No Y/n, I swear, I am not, I’m telling you the truth, I’m telling you this because I know you are questioning everything and you deserve some level of explanation…trust me Y/n I really care and I don’t wish this upon anyone” he was quite for a moment and then says “they are going to brainwash you Y/n…wipe everything you know” 

This infuriated you “then why tell me if I’m going to forget everything and they will control me”

“Because you might be able to fight it Y/n” he cups your face “it has happened before, you can be stronger and beat them at their own game, I was forced into hydra but you shouldn’t have to deal with it, I’m giving you sort of a way-out, you have managed to survive everything in your life maybe you can survive this too”

“This isn’t a way-out, this is more like a gamble Matthew, just let me go…give me the location of where Kara is at and…”

“I can’t do that Y/n, you know that… they will have my head” he took a deep breath “you survived what your organization did to you, you can beat hydra” he was packing everything into the medical kit, he walked out of the room and you were left alone again, everything around you started to turn dark.

You wake up scared, you move your hands but they are handcuffed, you look up, they are cuffed to the bed, you pull your hands trying to break the metal restrains, it was only hurting you, your wrists were bruising you would scream for your mum but no one comes to you…..you find yourself sitting tied up to a chair forced to watch the television, it was everything from princess movies to other animated cartoons shows “enjoy the shows my child” said an old voice……You were tired your body is sore “again” you had to perform your routine again, this was your twentieth time “again” the old woman's voice screamed, you cried feeling like your body giving up and when you would fall the instructor would pick you up by the arm to stand back up to your feet “I said again”.

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Chapter 3 

  Natasha’s POV 

“What are you doing?” I look up from my tablet to see Clint walking in the meeting room “nothing just looking if we have any missions coming up” he raises an eyebrow “do you really think I’m going to fall for that” I shrug “well that’s what I am doing believe me or not that’s up to you”. He walks up to me and pulls the tablet away from my hand “hey..” he runs to the other side of the room and looks at the information displayed.

“Russia?” his face is now staring into mine “Nat why are you looking at cases there?” 

“Look it’s nothing I’m just…” he is walking towards me “tell me what is going on NOW, because this is even weird for your behaviour” I don’t have all the information to tell him anything plus I don’t know if I should tell him anything this is for me to deal with “like I said…” I took the tablet away from him and continued “it’s nothing” 

“I know you better that “it’s nothing” Nat” he air quotes the it’s nothing. I sigh “okay…look” I trust Clint more than anyone I know “I am not sure about anything yet but a source sent me important information and I am trying to decipher that information” his face is blank “is it encrypted” I shake me head “I have to link the information that was given with the information I am going to find” 

“So you are playing detective” I just nod “who is this source, like are they reliable” I nod “yeah, they are, I think” he looks at me “You think? Are you serious? Not only are you playing detective but the information you have may not be reliable ” he didn’t say anything more the other members of the team are walking towards the meeting room “I’ll explain later…not a word Clint” he did the zipped mouth motion. 

The meeting went on…I wasn’t really focused. I was trying to connect the information I have. I kept looking at the tablet looking if there were any missions to Russia and the US in Seattle during the time that was provided to me.

My phone rings, I pull out the device and it was an unknown number “excuse me” I walked out of the meeting room “hello” there was heavy breathing on the other end of the line “hello” I repeat myself “are you alone?” said a distorted voice “who is this?” whoever it was didn’t answer my question “Kara Delavenne and Y/n Y/l/n were on the missions at the locations that were sent to you” 

“I have nothing to do with the RR anymore” I spoke in a frim tone 

“You were close to them both and they need your help”

“They are grown adults they can take care of themselves”

“Not this time Romanoff, look into what I have sent you they have been neglected for years, would you really leave your fellow widows behind when they need you” I didn’t say a word the voice said “now…now...this isn’t you Black widow you won’t let your sister and friend down” and the call ends. “Hey you okay?” Clint says from behind me I nod and walk away. What did the person mean they needed me? 

I go to my room and start working on the research, I start looking up Y/n Y/l/n through the S.H.I.E.L.D. database her profile on display I haven’t seen her in years and to my shock I read the words deceased in all caps, I did the same with Kara’s name and I got the same result. I freeze in place, fingers hovering over the keys I click back to Y/n’s profile.

“This is impossible” my breathing hitched but the call…is someone pulling a prank on me, there was a knock on my door without thinking I got up “Nat I…” I open the door to find Clint 

“Hey you okay?” I take a breath and nod, he walks in my room and sits me on my chair “hey…look at me” he cups my face to look at him, I do “what’s wrong?” his voice is soft and calm, they can’t be dead, how? But… “Nat…who’s profile are you looking up?” That question brings me back “what?”

“Y/n? You have her profile on your screen, is she okay?” 

“She’s one of the people I was sent the information about to sav…” I couldn’t finish that sentence, they were strong from what I have heard last, they were the best agents the Red room had but… “NAT” I look at Clint “I got a call during the meeting, I didn’t know who it was but they told me that I needed to help Y/n and Kara, that they were in trouble and I shouldn’t leave them behind…but on the database they are dead Clint…they can’t be”

“Are they...?” Clint looks at me 

“Widows” I didn't let him finish 

“And this involves you how?” 

“They are missing from what I have received and apparently the Red room aren’t doing anything about it” 

“This isn’t your problem Nat…the Red room and all that shit is all behind you”

“But what if it’s true and…”

“No…we have a mission and I need you to focus on that, it’s just someone trying to mess with you”

“But why would I receive the information I got Clint, it doesn’t make any sense and the call” 

“Is that source reliable Nat. The database shows that they are dead, not on the alive or the wanted list” He had a point, the database is accurate and is rarely ever wrong and whoever called me didn’t know that they are gone "But I need to know what happened to Y/n, it's Y/n, Clint" he sighs and grabs my shoulders "I know and we will find out if it's true or not when we get back from the mission, I know you care about her but this could be someone messing with you let's leave it okay" I just nod.

“Come on Nat, Cap is waiting”

 Throughout the whole flight I couldn’t think of anything but Kara and Y/n. Last I heard of them was that they were the best agents in the Red room why would they neglect them during a mission, what was their last mission? I can’t ignore this. I need to figure this out, I pull out my phone and text the number “how can I trust what you are telling me is the truth? My database shows me different information”

Almost immediately I got a text back “because that’s what the Red room declared, they died during their missions”

“Why come to me? There are others that can deal with this” 

“Natasha I only trust two people with this information that’s why I sent it to you and I can’t do this alone, it is bigger than I could handle on my own” 

“I need proof, give me something” almost like they were waiting for me to say that, I got a few images and videos of Y/n being tortured. “How would I know when these were dated” 

“This was taken a few weeks ago, it’s not clear but that’s Y/n in a glass cell and she is put there so her powers won’t hurt anyone and I don't have anything on Kara it's like she fell off the grid” I play the video that they recently send and it was someone that did look like Y/n enraged and her throwing energy balls at people, it ended by Y/n was steamed and just fell to the grown. 

“They need us Natasha, please I need your help” 

“No secrets, no fishy business, once I sense anything wrong I walk out and I will take you down…I also need to know who you are?” it took a while since I got a reply from the number but “I’m Eva, a former widow like yourself” 

“Who else knows about this, you said you trusted two people” 

“You and Yelena Belova”  

*

“You’ve been distracted lately, what's going on?” I heard Bruce speak, I look at him “hmm” 

“See what I mean” a voice says 

“See what?” I asked, someone is laughing “this is what I have been dealing with for the past two months” Clint points at me looking at Bruce, “He said you seem distracted” Steve said as he walked into the compound lounge and he continued “and he isn’t wrong, are you okay?” 

I looked away from my tablet “I’m fine and everything is okay, can’t a person have other things to think about” I smirk and look at Steve and then at the other two “also it’s getting late and I’m feeling tired so I’m heading out, see you all tomorrow” I walk away from the lounge and I hear them wish me a good night, when I reach me room I continue my search on my computer, I have been in contact with Eva and she keeps updating me with new information and I do the same, finding Y/n isn’t easy because she is never in the same location long enough for us to have a proper trace and Kara is just off the grid. 

However Y/n doesn't seem to be in the location more that four days max which makes it hard to keep track of them and also we can’t be in two places at once, Eva got close to reaching Kara once but the location was blown up and she lost track of Kara and hasn't found anything since, Y/n seem to move faster than she used to, I think because she doesn't have to be as stealthy as she used too or I think…I’m not sure what is going on with them.

Eva’s prediction is that they have turned their back on the Red room and have become Hydra agents but I don’t think so, I know Y/n well and she wouldn’t just turn her back against the Red room not when Red Room were the only family she has and Kara is just too loyal so I don’t think she would betray the widows either. 

“I don’t know what to do anymore it’s been two months and we have reached to nothing, every time we think we are on their back we get thrown back to square one” I huff in frustration while talking to Eva “I am trying all I can with what I can get, but trust me this is more progress I have done with you than I have been doing on my own for the past years”  

“Years? How long have you been on this?” I questioned Eva

“Five years…I thought I could do it on my own but boy was I wrong however I did get Yelena to help and now I have you” she sounded a little less defeated 

“How is Yelena helping? Isn’t she still with the Red room? I don’t think she will go against their rules” I hear her giggle “It took some convincing I’m not going to lie but once I told her about Y/n and Kara, she did her own digging and came to a conclusion to help me she wouldn’t leave Y/n” I nod and have a smile on my face “Yelena and I are trying to track Kara we have been getting a few hits but none we sure about and you and I are tracking Y/n” 

“How is that going?” I questioned, “I mean is there more progress than what we were having”

“It’s going the same I guess but it’s still a wee bit hard to get any location on Kara since she is nowhere to be found we get a few leads but nothing hits" she sighs defeated “I don’t know what more to do Natasha” Eva is starting to give up and I don’t blame her being so close to the prize only to be pushed back to square one only sets morals down. We talk for a bit, I tell her not to give up and hang up.

I got up to get ready to rest that’s when I hear a knock on the door and I know who it is “yes Clint” he walks in my room and sits on my bed “I’m not leaving until you tell me what is going on with you because you have been acting strange and everyone is noticing” I sigh

“For the past two months I have been working with a former widow to find missing widows that the Red room is not looking for… they were missing for years but…” he cut me off “that again, I thought we came to a conclusion that this is over Nat, the database said they were dead and we couldn't find anything that claims what your source is right either… look I know it's Y/n but..” I put my hand up “let me finish, we found proof I have seen them alive Clint and I can’t let them just go, the Red room may not give a shit but I do, I know them…I have worked with them… Y/n is more than a just a friend, I was in an undercover projects with her it meant more to me than just undercover, I can’t let my sister down, Clint.”

He sighs “okay…okay” he crossed his arms over his chest and continued “I’ll believe you even though this is crazy Nat but I believe you and I will help you with this..” I shake my head no “I’m going to help…like it or not…I’m doing it, show me what you know so far, fresh eyes might help” I nod I know how stubborn he is and he will not stand down from this, maybe he is right. Fresh eyes might be good.