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I spent all day decorating my house with candles and rose petals for George. I can't wait for him to come over. He'll love it. He'll love me. Once in done placing the candles on the floor and kitchen table and two on my nightstand I go shower. After I showered I lit all of the candles, there are rose petals on my bed and all over the floor. This is going to be hell to clean but it's going to win me back George, I'm certain of it.
It's 8:05 and he isn't here yet. I try not to panic yet because it's still early. I'm hopefully George will come. Suddenly 8:05 turns into 8:45 and then 9:00 PM. I feel my heart breaking a bit. I know he never said he'd come but still, I wished he would've came so he could see how sorry I am and how much he means to me. He's my heart and these few weeks without him has been hell. I need him back. I feel tears glistening in my eyes and I rough wipe them away. I grab my keys and head to the door.
As my hand held the door knob, there's a knock on the door. I open it immediately and there he is. My beautiful boy. He looks perfect. He's wearing a white shirt with matching linen trousers, he looks like an angel. My heart races and for a second I think it's about to burst out of my chest.
"Schat." I breathed out, relieved that he came. "Come in." I say, taking his hand in mine and bringing him inside. He looks around at the candles and rose petals. I feel nervous for a second but I don't allow myself to dwell on the nerves, not when the most beautiful person in the world is standing in front of me, not when he's so close that I can touch him, hold him in my arms and kiss his prefect lips. "Do you like it?" I asked.
"Max... You-" He stops himself with a sigh. "You shouldn't have done all of this." He says. "Why not?" I asked, knowing he's right, knowing that we should at least talk about our problems instead of trying to fix it with sex. George is quiet for a moment. "... I just need you to see how much I care about you, how much I love you." I say in a whisper. He turns away from me.
"Why do you do this? Why do you say things you don't mean? You don't love me Max, you've made that clear." I feel irritated and helpless at his words. I made a mistake, a stupid one and I've apologized for it so why can't he just forgive me already? "It's not fair that you're still punishing me for a mistake I made. I wasn't trying you hurt you intentionally I was just confused and yes, I should've communicated better but I didn't and I'm sorry so can we just please move on?!" I say, frustrated.
"Are you serious right now?" George asked. "How can I move on with you after that? Do you truly expect me to just forgive you and let it go even though you're still in love with Charles?" I feel a wave of annoyance and anger wash over me. I told him I'm not in love with Charles and he still doesn't believe me!
"Stop! Stop, I'm not in love with him, I love you, I only love you and I made a mistake, a stupid one but can you please stop punishing me for it and at least try to get over it? And sleeping with Toto? That has to stop because just like how you didn't like the list, I don't like him touching you." I say. I know the list and him being with Toto are completely different but I don't care.
"You can't just-" I cut him off. "Why not? I love you, George. I want you. I don't want anyone else despite what I did but can you say the same? You're this upset about the list but how long did it take you to jump back in Toto's bed like the whore he made you in-" He slaps me across the face. His beautiful eyes burn with anger. Fuck he's beautiful.
I take ahold of his wrist and pull him closer to me. "I want you." I whisper in his ear as my free hand finds his waist. "Go to hell." He hisses. "No, I'd rather stay here with you." I replied back, kissing alongside his jaw. He's so beautiful when he's furious at me. I mean, he's beautiful all the time but now especially, he's trying his hardest to stay angry at me, to not give in to me but it's not working. He wants me and I know, he knows I know it. He wants me and I'm more than happy to give him what he wants.