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  1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Fri 08 Aug 2025 11:22PM UTC

    No cause I’m not a system I don’t think-

    I just have literal people in my head who talk to me all the time and occasionally say fuck this shit I’m leaving for a day. Like there are four of them and it’s silly but like-

    NONE OF THEM ARE NICE TO ME?? Even the five year old is a little bitch (one of them just said don’t swear around children and another one just told that one to fuck off, it is very entertaining)

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    1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Fri 08 Aug 2025 11:59PM UTC

      I’ll hold your hand when I tell you this- ( but being serious rigth now , if you have periods of amnesia or dissociation and childhood trauma you should probably look into DID or other forms of plurality )

      Anyways , All my headmates are pretty chill , except maybe shuuji but hes chill when hes talking to my best friend so I guess he found someone he doesn’t hate , at least none of them put us in trouble normally

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      1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 12:30AM UTC

        I…okay then. And I dissociate but like—I normally just stare at nothing and do nothing until someone talks to me, and then I respond with whatever my default for that question is and awkwardly try to exist again. I don’t get amnesia tho, I just have shit memory and forget stuff all the time. I don’t think I have DID, just people existing in my brain-

        And YES. He would and I love him for that. Also the plushie is a hermit crab named Chibi and I will fight someone over that

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        1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 12:48AM UTC

          It may not be DID but you still should take a lil look on that because even if it isn’t DID there’s still something wrong because normally people doesn’t have headmates , I don’t know what it might be though

          Yes dazai would a hundred percent have a lil crab plushie named chuuya and it it would come in a two pack with a lil fish plushie that chuuya would keep in his bed to remind him of zai , zai also would be one of those baby’s that gets scared about their own shadow

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          1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 01:13AM UTC

            Okay then. Ignoring that-

            YES. The baby is scared of his own shadow—I dunno why but I feel like he’d be terrified of everything harmless but look at a gun and laugh. He ain’t scared of cockroaches, he’s scared of the television

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            1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 01:26AM UTC

              I think he’d be scared of ants but would absolutely love tigers and lions , hes just a lil guy with too much trauma and repressed fear , he’d also would be one of those baby’s that wouldn’t trade their pacifier for the world

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              1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 01:38AM UTC

                Yes. He chews on everything and refuses to stop (me core), like he’s more emotionally attached to his goddamn pacifier than his caregiver and it’s hilarious

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                1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 01:48AM UTC

                  Yes , but no one has the courage to mad at him when hes just a lil baby , and if they had the courage dazai would absolutely get scared and have a meltdown so no one really confronts him

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                  1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 02:10AM UTC

                    Yesssss

                    He’s just a scared lil guy and no one has the heart to confront him about his bad habits when he’s tiny :((((

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                    1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 02:18AM UTC

                      Hes a tiny guy , I also Headcanon him to be a perma regressor ( age not specified) and that’s why he acts so childish while in the ADA or most times with chuuya and lupin trio

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                      1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 04:00AM UTC

                        Yesssssss I love that-

                        Like he just kinda floats about with certain people and becomes a fully grown man with others cause ‘fuck you to ig :(‘ I’m gonna cryyyy

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                        1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 04:52AM UTC

                          Yess , I think he would absolutely never regress if he was somwere close to mori but would be fully regressed with oda and ango

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                          1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 05:25AM UTC

                            Absolutely. That man is codependent as fuck I will fight you

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                            1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 01:28PM UTC

                              Hes codependent because he was always so independent at a young age his brain is trying to repair it now

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                              1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 01:52PM UTC

                                All of Dazais mildly healthy coping mechanisms be like: Heyyyy buddy…? Here you go…fix that trauma…

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                                1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 05:17PM UTC

                                  Yea , and he still can’t fix it , the poor baby has too much trauma to be fixed

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                                  1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Sun 10 Aug 2025 12:38AM UTC

                                    Yeah…at least it makes good fanfiction I guess

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                                    1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Tue 12 Aug 2025 01:33PM UTC

                                      Yea , our poor boy suffers for our happiness but at least he gets to enjoy being babied ( sorry for my late response, I was very sick in the last two days , im better now tough)

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                                      1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Tue 12 Aug 2025 11:31PM UTC

                                        It’s fine, I’m glad you feel better <33333

                                        And yes. Baby the child. Hurt/comfort fuels me

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                                        1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Tue 12 Aug 2025 11:59PM UTC

                                          Hurt/comfort is life , especially if it’s agere dazai hurt/comfort

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                                          1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Wed 13 Aug 2025 06:46AM UTC

                                            y e s

                                            You understand me so well >:3

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                                            1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Thu 14 Aug 2025 12:24AM UTC

                                              Yesss , im a mind reader /j

                                              ( do you have a tumblr account?? , I’d like to moots if you have one ) ( only if your comfortable sharing it though, no pressure)

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                                              1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Thu 14 Aug 2025 12:36AM UTC

                                                I don’t have a tumblr-

                                                I’d make one but I’d probably forget about to after a day sooooo

                                                If you have a quotev account we could message privately over there?? I don’t use it anymore (my two posted works are both old and weird lol) but there’s a messaging feature I’m pretty sure

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                                                1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Thu 14 Aug 2025 01:01AM UTC

                                                  I don’t have a Quotev rigth now but give me a few minutes and I’ll come back with one

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                                                  1. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Thu 14 Aug 2025 02:05AM UTC

                                                    K <3

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                                                    1. Puppy_dog_dont_know_why on Chapter 4 Thu 14 Aug 2025 10:05AM UTC

                                                      My account is under the name puppydogdontknowwhy!! ( sorry for taking soo long. , my bio parents taken my phone cuz they said i was awake too late )

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      3. Anonymous_Eggz on Chapter 4 Sat 09 Aug 2025 12:31AM UTC

        Wait no-I responded to both your comments in one-

        I read them weirdly ignore that, my brain is glitchy

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