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  1. Public Bookmark 49

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    “Now Randy,” he says, low and careful and right against his mouth, “you’ve gotta remember that when I tell you to do things, it’s for your own good. Right?”

    Randy’s having a hard time keeping his eyes focused on just the cigarette or just on Benson — both are so close that his eyes keep making them blurry.

    “Uh— Uh-huh.”

    “So when I tell you you’re gonna smoke,” he continues, “that means you’re gonna do what?”

    Randy’s stomach drops. He doesn’t understand — doesn’t understand how Benson making him smoke is for his own good. He knows it’s not. He wants to ask, but knows Benson will just punch him for it instead, so he doesn’t. He feels his teeth clench together; Benson’s fingers flex along his jaw, feeling the muscle twitch.

    “Randy.”

    He relents. He feels like putty, all his nerves spooling and tangling and getting crossed to make him numb.

    “I’m gonna…” Randy swallows, feeling breathless. “I’m gonna smoke.”

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    28 Oct 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    so like the scent kink fic with the pretty prose and self loathing I climbed it and I was like wow peak and then I turned to see mt everest and my jaw dropped; no this is fuckign peak--- reminder to comment / better bookmark holy shit this Benson is nicotine

  2. Public Bookmark 62

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    When he turns his head to glance inside, eyes seeking for something to do without a customer to handle, Benson sees how his hair’s matted down to his forehead under the bill of his cap, sees the sparkle of sweat above his lip. Bradley doesn’t notice him looking, never does, but especially not now as he wavers in his spot in front of the register from the movement. His eyelids flutter a little, and Benson thinks too belatedly that the kid’s gonna eat tile if he doesn’t sit down.

    Benson looks away, back down to the table, squeezing his eyes shut hard for a second and pressing his thumb to the spot between his brows. The heat’s making his mind run too fucking slow.

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    He eyes Benson’s jacket one more time before turning to grab a dishrag and heading back to the counter. He passes by Benson mopping near one of the back tables and, this close, he’d know he was passing by Benson even with his eyes closed. He always smells like what Randy imagines the smoking section of a bar is like.

    That was the other tell, he realizes belatedly — the green coat smells like musty cigarettes. Rained-through and dredging up to surface all the stale smoke embedded in the threads.

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    28 Oct 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Comment later
    ; brain fried from peak

  3. Public Bookmark 3

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    Randy ran a shaking hand through his hair.  “No.  No, I’m dreaming.  This is a hallucination.  I’m dreaming.  Something!”  He sucked in an unsteady breath, squeezing his eyes tight and counting to ten.  When he opened them, Benson still stood there in that ugly yellow sweater ruined with the splatter of his blood, much to Randy’s chagrin.  His mind replayed in its eyes what it looked like to see Benson collapse to the ground, weighted down with several leaden bullets piercing his flesh.  He thought about how it looked to see Benson aim his gun at others, taking the shot and standing with a faint, blood-patterned smile as the bullets sprayed guts and viscera all over the restaurant.  The circle of death, he supposed.

     

    It was funny, how his mind could change so quickly.  Just that morning, he had been ever-so-grateful to Benson for changing his life.  And in a way, he still was.  But now, with the man himself standing in front of him, illusion or not, Randy couldn’t help but lash out.  Benson had taught him that, after all.

     


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    another ghost benson au

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    26 Sep 2025

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    Ghostie Benson and Freakazoid Randy…. <3 Nature is healing <3

  4. Public Bookmark 4

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    benson & randy through the seasons

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    26 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    When archeologists in the future dig up my bones, they’ll be fascinated at the two-thousand five hundred and seventy three words they’ll find carved into my very marrow. I know bone marrow is soft and hearty and won’t last a thousand years but this fic has made me go crazy.

    “regardless, Benson died as he lived, and no one could say for sure what that was” I’m running myself over with a car but the car is this fic and it doesn’t hurt except it does but I still keep getting back in the car and laying down in the street <\3

    SO GOOD

  5. Public Bookmark 3

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    Randy keeps prodding Benson after the run-in with Mr. Sheppard. That decision goes poorly for him.

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    25 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Bro, I was shaking in my boots next to Randy in the car. He wasn’t crazily furious or anything— just a true, honest anger. And the whole swerving while arguing and all that chaos happening in such a short time. Well, I could put myself in Randy’s place, let’s say that. I could totally see this as a deleted scene. Nice mix of fucking angry and frustratedly infatuated with Randy Benson is. 👍👍

  6. Public Bookmark 4

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    He doesn’t know what they did with Benson’s body. Randy guesses they cremated him and gave the remains to his mother. He thinks about driving over there and knocking on the door. A morbid part of him wants to see Benson, or rather what became of him.

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    24 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Another Randy POV — Walking around trying to be okay with the fact that he’s okay but everyone’s talking like Benson is just a monster but he’s not and he doesn’t know who Benson is— was— but he’s sure it wasn’t as simple as that. They didn’t know how he could wipe Randy’s tears with a tender hand, same hand he beat that guy to death with, the same hand he used to push and punch Randy around but it soothed him anyway. They didn’t know Benson did all of this just to get Randy to care about his life. Randy didn’t know if that was just an excuse Benson used to break up the monotony of a dragging, dead-end life. Did Benson see himself in Randy? Is that why it made him so upset to see him barreling down the same path?

    Benson is dead. So he won’t ever know.

    😭

  7. Public Bookmark 4

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    Lucky. They kept telling him that as they cleaned the wound and sutured it up, Randy too numb from the exhausting events of that day to respond with just how unlucky he felt.

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    24 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Common Randy L. Wanting to keep his bullet wound fresh and hurting. Thinks healing is for losers who get over the dudes who shot them. Can’t cope for the life of him. Look at what ya did, Benson, you wiped his tears, cared about his pathetic life and then you went and broke his heart.

  8. Public Bookmark 4

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    On the days he feels the loss so keenly it's like he's been shot again, he imagines returning to the diner.

    Or: what grows in the aftermath.

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    24 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    So fucking guilty of loving the idea that Randy chases Benson’s after-image in other people and always ends up so fucking disappointed that it’s just not right. Just not him. UGH.

  9. Public Bookmark 4

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    “The fuck you think you’re doin’?” drawled Pa from the bedroom doorway, a six pack in one oil-stained hand, his keys in the other.
    Benson leapt to his feet.

    (or; five times Benson considered pulling the trigger, and the one time he finally did.)

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    24 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    I’m very normal about this. No, I did not read it three times in a row, went to work, got home, and read it again to be able to formulate some sort of comment worthy enough but still failed. This is very very good Benson stuff. Feels like I really got into the mind of a thirty-whatever year old, Louisiana raised Benson. Chef’s kiss. No, Chef’s third base or some shit, really. Excellent.

  10. Public Bookmark 4

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    Randy's therapist suggest he should try writing, this probably isn't what she meant.

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    23 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    JEEZUS. Talk about real complicated feelings. I hate you but I couldn’t have done this without you but you did it so violently, it stains the memory of you but the memory of you is all I have— JUST LIGHT ME ON FIRE IT WOULD HURT LESS. <\3

  11. Public Bookmark 4

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    Randy goes through the stages of grief and the time in the next four years after the incident at BBB and Benson’s death

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    23 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    “He could never understand how a man who was capable of so much good and so much love, could substitute it all for so long that it felt bitter and acrid on his tongue. Made him spit venom and strike like a snake, snap and roll like a crocodile.”

    YES! YES! WOUNDED ANIMAL BENSON WHOS TEETH TURNED TO HATE — ONLY KNOWS HOW TO BITE AND HOWL. AHGHDJJ THE AGONY

  12. Public Bookmark 4

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    It's not that Randy misses Benson. He doesn't.

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    23 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    It’s not like Randy misses Benson, he just, ya know— wanted to know him past the frenetic, energetic mania of a man knowing he was going to die by the end of the night. Benson wasn’t in the ground, unreachable, but he was exactly a four and a half hours drive away and he could be reached by collect call for about three dollars and some change in exchange for fifteen minutes of Randy spewing his heart out to a man who didn’t know much of him either but sure did leave a hell of an impression.

    This one hurted a lot. Randy just wants to be okay. But he’s not ;(

  13. Public Bookmark 5

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    Pre-canon. Benson gives Randy a ride home, and Randy tries to think about his feelings.

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    22 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    As much as I love canon, I love these little everyday things too. Made what happened even more of a “what the fuck is happening” kinda thing. Love the little moments that show Bensons as being kind despite everything. Passenger by Deftones came on while I was reading and yup. Fits this to a motherfucking T!

  14. Public Bookmark 14

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    If you went digging around in Benson's car, you'd find a bottle of too-warm water that's probably safe to drink from. A spare high beam bulb, still in the packaging. A tire pump purchased almost twenty years ago for a blue bicycle. An even distribution of about thirty napkins. Enough change rattling in the glove box to buy a lottery ticket. He has everything you'd need to keep rolling down dirty roads with no end in sight.

    The only thing missing from Benson's car is a gun or two.

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    22 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    So fucking good. This Benson is my bread and butter. Beef stew. Hearty and filling and just what the weather called for. Edit: SO FUCKING PEAK. SO FUCKING GOOD. I RIP MY HEART OUT OF MY CHEST AND LEAVE IT BLOODY AND NASTY ON YOUR ALTAR FAWWWWWWWWWK SO GOOD>

  15. Public Bookmark 6

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    Randy was having an anxiety attack.

    (Or: Benson lives and gets sentenced for 38 years in prison and Randy handles it very well.)

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    22 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    FELT. Randy tries the five senses thing to calm his anxiety attack and of course it doesn’t work. Crazy how this was about Randy and then I was like, “Wait is this fucking play about me!?” Nah, but seriously. That part really had me immersed bc that shit doesn’t work on me either. Poor Randy. Poor Benson. Sad.

  16. Public Bookmark 6

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    Randy develops a crush on his coworker and works himself up into propositioning him.

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    22 Sep 2025

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    Randy’s such a loser 😭 Baby gay taking advice from online forums 😭 I’d like to think this humiliation spurs Randy into having a little bit more of a spine.

  17. Public Bookmark 7

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    It feels like an offering. It feels like nature's signaling to him that he's meant to be the provider and the protector. He takes a deep breath and he pulls the trigger.

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    22 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Lonely creatures just yearning for connection-- Benson's a biting thing using his teeth to forage for just that

  18. Public Bookmark 74

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    Fifteen years after Benson’s killing spree, the world has moved on. The state police claim he’s dead, and no one besides Randy has ever disagreed with them.

    Freshly divorced, dissatisfied with life and staring down the barrel of a mid-life crisis, Randy realizes that for him, there’s no moving on without knowing – he needs to find out what really happened to Benson, no matter how painful the truth may be.

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    21 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Don’t fucking touch me for sixteen business days. Don’t talk to me. Can you believe this arrangement of words and prose and dialogue was readily available for me to read for free??? God is real and I found it in this fic. (Probably) no amount of currency could make me feel the way this fic made me feel. Who would’ve thought that random Saturday I spent scrolling for thirty minutes, food long gone cold, for something to watch would’ve ended up with reading some of the best things I’ve read to date. Wowzers. I love love.

  19. Public Bookmark 8

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    After Benson shoots Randy (accidentally), the two wind up in a seedy motel room for the night, Benson doing his best to hold it together, deal with a bullet wound and ideally, not get caught. And especially not let Randy lose it or do something stupid, like try to call the police again.

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    16 Sep 2025

  20. Public Bookmark 10

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    Randy is bored and stuck in the 18th motel of the road trip, he overhears some conversations for working girls while reading through a Very in-depth cosmo article.

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    16 Sep 2025

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