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  1. Public Bookmark 33

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    “I was,” Remus corrected, hitting each syllable like a nail. “Past tense. Whatever you’re trying to say about me, about us, that ended tonight.” The hand on the curtain tightened. “As of now, you and I are nothing.”

    The silence that followed didn’t feel empty. It felt total. Sirius’s grip loosened. The fabric slid a few centimetres through his fingers before he caught it again, but there was no strength behind it now. The fight went out of his arms as if someone had reached inside and flipped a switch.

    “But… I love you,” he said.

    It came out small. For a boy who’d always worn confidence like a cloak, the words were shockingly bare. No flair, no bravado. Just a cracked confession, a final offering held out with shaking hands.

    “You don’t do this to someone you love.”

    Or after the prank, nothing is the same between the Marauders anymore: Regulus is ready to blow everything up for having left his brother in what are clearly the wrong hands (Evan and Barty in tow), Remus is a wreck, and Sirius is going down with him.

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    22 Nov 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 40

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    "Sirius Black did not cry that night.
    He watched the skull with a snake coming out of its mouth drawn on his left
    arm."

    "And somewhere, far off in the part of him still dreaming,
    the children lay down in the poppy field and never got back up.
    They fell asleep before they could leave,
    and watered the flowers with their tears.

    But it wasn’t a cruel sleep.
    Not the kind born of running, or hiding, or giving in.
    It was the kind that wraps around you softly,
    like a hand on your hair,
    like a lullaby with no words.
    A sleep that says: you don’t have to fight anymore.
    And for a moment, that sounded a lot like peace."

    Maybe Sirius could escape, maybe not...
    from his family or himself.

    Maybe Sirius could surv- make it to the train on time,
    or maybe not.

    If a place had been left for him.

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    11 Jun 2025

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    Life goes on after the Foxes win the championship, and for Andrew and Neil it's uncharted territory with only each other for guides. Maybe it's time to put away some of those hard edges, and learn how to touch more softly, and speak more honestly. And if they falter, they have their family to help them get back on their feet.

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    30 May 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 85

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    In which Remus and Lily start spending more time together in the aftermath of The Incident in Fifth year With Snape and Remus and the Shrieking Shack, and James and Sirius – convinced that they’re dating – pretend to be dating each other to make them jealous. Lily and Remus do in fact get jealous and double down -pretending - in turn - to be dating as well. Everyone sits on the brink of madness for approximately 2 weeks before they all collectively come to their senses with a little help from their friends.

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    26 May 2025

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    A shiver trembles through Sirius, racing up his spine, and he blames the crisp air. Remus leans closer, and his lips are parting-- and Sirius shrieks as a chunk of wet, numbing snow is rubbed into his cheek. He squirms beneath him, twisting his head away, but Remus only presses him harder into the glacial ground.

    When Remus sits back, Sirius glowers darkly, using his freed arm to wipe his face with his sleeve. He can't quite remember how to breathe, and Remus is still over him, their legs tangled and bent at odd angles.

    "You were a lot nicer to me when you were sick." Sirius says.

    "I was weak." Remus smiles, and the warmth from his body fades as he gets to his feet. "Don't get used to it."

     

    Of pub quizzes, old films, Chinese takeaways, broken arms, and impassioned discussions of literature: Remus is confusing, and Sirius is just trying to figure him out.

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    20 May 2025

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