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    Ilya drives Yuna to an appointment. He’s spent maybe five minutes with her alone and is stressed about making a decent impression.

    “My parents live in Ottawa-Ottawa, but there are suburbs that are kind of in Ottawa and kind of not. Don’t worry, it’s not that confusing.” The thing is, it is that confusing.

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    Ilya runs into Shane's parents in the hospital.

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  3. Public Bookmark 55

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    Ilya stands in the hallway of Shane’s parents’ house with his boots still on, shoulders slightly hunched, fingers worrying the sleeve of his sweater. He’s been here before, plenty of times, but tonight feels different. Tonight means something. Christmas lights glow along the banister, warm gold reflected in the windowpanes, and somewhere deeper in the house there’s the low murmur of voices and the clink of dishes.

    He leans toward Shane and whispers, for the third time since they parked the car. “Are you sure it’s okay? Like, really okay?”

    Shane smiles at him, soft and fond, the way he does when he understands exactly what’s going on in Ilya’s head. He cups Ilya’s elbow, thumb brushing reassurance into skin. “Yes,” he says gently. “They want you here. I want you here.”

    Ilya nods, even though his chest still feels too full, like something might spill over if he breathes wrong. Christmas with a family. A real one. Not a hotel, not a team dinner, not a quiet night pretending it doesn’t matter. This matters so much it scares him.

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    Ilya's first Christmas with the Hollanders.

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    It’s automatic, taking care of Anya like this. Despite the darkness in his head, and the pit resting in his ribs, Ilya manages to ground himself to her. Shane can be just as grounding, but it’s Anya that allows him to let his mind smooth out and focus on just about nothing.

    Because if Ilya thinks of Shane, the worst thoughts always return.

    OR, Ilya’s depression gets the better of him.

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    Ilya barely manages to swerve in time to avoid turning the Hollander-Marleau collision into a three-man pileup. He watches as Marleau stands up and apologizes to Shane — Ilya has no idea if it was a clean hit, but from Marleau’s face, he’s pretty sure it was accidental. And then Ilya waits for Shane to get up.

    He doesn’t move.

    Marleau glances at him as Ilya skates up to Shane, putting a hand on his shoulder as he says, “Hollander?” When he gets no response, he says it again, this time louder and with a steadily rising sense of dread. “Hollander, come on, get up.”

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