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It lingers, like a wound. Like something he doesn't know how to touch, to handle, to even think about let alone talk about. He moves around it, mostly. He lets Buck cheat at cards and cook him steak and ramble about bioluminescent octopuses from the latest wildlife documentary he watched, and he doesn't say, I imagined going to your funeral.
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- Part 15 of 9-1-1 Prompt Fills and Ficlets
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30 Dec 2025
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“Hi, hi, sorry, excuse me,” the guy says. “Weird question, but would you mind doing me a massive favor?”
Eddie squints at him. It’s not exactly well-lit in here, but he’s still about ninety percent sure that this guy was not with Emilio’s bachelor party when they came in. “Do I know you?”
“Um. No,” the guy says. He’s got wide blue eyes and a nervous smile and a salt-rimmed margarita glass clutched in one large hand. As Eddie watches, he glances over his shoulder, then hunches down like he’s trying to hide. Given the size of him, it’s more ridiculous than effective. “So this is going to sound completely nuts, and I promise I’ll explain, but can I throw this frozen margarita in your face and call you a jerk?”
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- Part 1 of 9-1-1 Prompt Fills and Ficlets
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After Eddie goes through an entire box of Frank’s tissues in a week and finally manages to read through those reddit stories without flinching, he tells Frank, “I think I want to have sex. Like with a man. Gay sex.”
Frank tilts his head, pressing the tip of his middle finger against the space between his eyebrows, and sighs. He makes a note — Eddie wonders, half-hysterical, if he’s writing down the words gay sex — and then taps the end of his pen against his knee as he meets Eddie’s eyes.
“Do I have to tell you that you don’t have to?” Frank asks, mild.
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or, eddie sleeps with men that aren't buck until, well, you know.
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12 Oct 2025
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I’ll tell them put me back in it (and I would do it again) by paleredheadinascifi
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
04 Feb 2025
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Eddiaz is listening to the slowburn friends to lovers playlist
Eddiaz listened to the POV you’re falling in love with your best friend playlist
Eddiaz listened to the sad gay yearning hours playlist
Eddiaz listened to the he was my best friend and that was the worst part playlistOr, Eddie doesn't know how to make his listening history private. Buck doesn't know what to do with the words in front of his eyes. Chris cannot believe he has to deal with either of them.
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05 Oct 2025
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eddie's not entirely sure he believes in getting help, at least not for himself. there's only so much healing to be had for a body torn apart by bullets, for a mind that's only half there, for a man who's been leaving pieces of himself behind all his life with nothing to take their place.
except, as it turns out, falling apart happens in increments, and healing does, too: it happens when you gnaw a hole in your lip trying to keep quiet only to have the words escape; when you realize that the ghost you've been seeing out of the corner of your eye is yourself; when your best friend smiles, and you allow it to take your breath away.
it happens through the smallest of things: bird feeders, and cacti, and pasta shapes.
meanwhile, the world goes on.
(or: the entity often affectionately referred to as the unrepression fic.)
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- Part 1 of tell me about despair
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18 Sep 2025
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Cara Alvarez of the El Paso Fire Department knows exactly two things about her new coworker Eddie Diaz. One: Diaz has a husband named 'Buck', who he left back in LA. Two: Diaz is Extremely Annoying about how much he misses his husband, the aforementioned 'Buck'.
Or; Eddie moves to El Paso, and his new coworkers come to certain assumptions. Eddie... does not correct these assumptions.
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04 Sep 2025
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Eddie opens his mouth. Closes it. Finally, he settles on, “You told your parents you’re married? To a man?”
Chimney and Hen both glance at him with twin looks that clearly mean he’s on his own with telling the rest of the story. Which—they had no problem teasing and joking about it three seconds ago, but now that Buck has to really get to the heart of the issue, they’re leaving it to him?
Go fucking figure.
“I told my parents,” Buck says, rubbing at the bridge of his nose with closed eyes, “that I’m married to you.”
or, buck and eddie go to hershey for buck's high school reunion. the only problem? everyone thinks that they're married.
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31 Aug 2025
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“I really shouldn’t do this over the phone—on a fucking voicemail, of all things, but I—”
Eddie breaks off with a choked noise. He’s sitting in the parking lot of Trader Joe’s, for Christ’s sake. Peak of romance, Diaz, he thinks, and then laughs. Buck deserves so much better than this. Then him. But Frank said be brave, and Eddie is—really, really fucking trying.
“But I love you. I’m in love with you. And I want you to come home.”
or, seven conversations eddie has over the phone and one he has in person.- Language:
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31 Aug 2025
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It’s July in LA, there’s a heatwave, and Buck is fucking upset.
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30 Aug 2025
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“It’ll go fine.” Howie advised. “I don’t like the idea of you being there alone,” he joked with a small little smile. “But it’ll be okay.”
“I’m not alone.” Maddie teased with a matching smile of her own.
“You’re right.” Howie conceded. “You have our scary baby girl to hold everyone off.”
Maddie snorted. “I meant -.”
“I know what you meant.” Howie sobered. “I like the idea of him being there even less.”
Maddie’s stomach jolted. “Do you think I made a mistake?” She asked cautiously. “Should I have told him not to come?”
Howie waved a hand to the side. “Nah,” he shrugged. “We both know Buck’s going to Buck.”
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Or, realizing that the family that you need has been beside you all along.
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Bookmarked by Heliophile
17 Aug 2025
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It's all true, even the lies. (A little backstory, a lot of dialogue.)
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16 Aug 2025
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His mouth quirks up into a sly smile. “You are detectives, after all.”
Oh, no.
“I’m sure you can figure out who it is. Go about it like you would a case, see if you can get it right. If you do, I’ll tell you. No tricks.” Mike spreads his hands in a conciliatory manner, like it’d be some big feat to see through his hilariously bad poker face. “Think you’re up for it?”
(mike's going on a date, and makes a game out of not telling kris and sam who he's going on a date with.)
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28 Jul 2025
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there it is again, sitting on my chest (makes it hard to catch my breath) by Elgney
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24 Mar 2025
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“I just—I don’t want you to be alone,” said Eddie, softly, like an admission.
Join the fucking club, Buck thought. It was funny, but none of his laughs were coming out right tonight. “I am alone, Eddie.”
“Buck, I—”
“She wants my kidney.” There it went; Buck never could keep anything inside. Could never keep the feelings contained, could never stop them from spilling out over the people nearest him. “That’s what fucking happened, okay? My dad needs a kidney donor and they remembered why they bothered having me in the first place. Is that what you wanted to hear? That my parents finally found a use for me after all these years?”
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A request from his mom tears open old wounds for Buck. From 800 miles away, Eddie tries to stitch him back together.
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23 Jul 2025
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the demand for Buck to donate a kidney to his father (excellent response from Eddie 10/10 no notes)
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“I’m not regretting breaking up with Taylor,” Buck says. “It just… would have been nice to go with someone, is all. Don’t get me wrong, I’m completely over Ali, and I’m happy for her and everything, but…”
“But you also want to show that she’s not the only one who could move on,” Eddie says.
And yeah. That’s pretty much right on the money. Always Eddie, to see him, ugliness and all. It’s a shit thought to have, because the last person Ali Martin’s big day is about is him, but—
Well, but. He’s thirty-one and in love with his best friend, who is decidedly not in love with him. He thinks he’s earned the right to be a little uncharitable.
Then Eddie says, very casually, “Just take me.”
Or, Buck gets invited to an ex’s wedding. Eddie volunteers to come as his date.
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20 Jul 2025
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There’s an empty spot next to the guy, so what the fuck—Danny steps up to the bar and sprawls into the seat. He’s had a terrible day, so at the very least he deserves some eye candy to surreptitiously enjoy while drowning his sorrows.
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15 Jul 2025
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It's the smoke that wakes him, seeping into his apartment not ten minutes after he finally knocks off.
He's off the couch in half a second, heart pounding with adrenaline, at the kitchen counter before he even realizes that the familiar smell in his nose is burning insulation.
There isn't any alarm going, no sprinklers on, no neighbors screaming or doors banging open, but Buck knows.
"9-1-1," says a vaguely familiar voice on the other end of the phone once he punches in the numbers. "What's your emergency?"
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11 Jul 2025
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“Are you homophobic?”
“What?”
“Will you be my boyfriend?”
“Yes,” Eddie answered, automatically, even though his mind had volunteered several other pressing questions, like what are you talking about and what is happening and did I recently sustain brain damage.
“Thanks,” said Buckley, and then he pushed Eddie back against the side of the firetruck and kissed him.
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It's the 63rd Annual Los Angeles Fire Muster & Firefighter’s Family Day, and inter-station relations are about to get real friendly between fire houses 6 and 118.
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08 Jul 2025
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“Well,” Buck says. “I’ve had worst first dates.”
The man looks unimpressed. “We fell fifty feet, got trapped beneath a building, your legs are pinned, and you’re telling me you’ve had worse?”
Buck thinks about this. “Well, Veronica liked the Red Sox.”
or, there’s an earthquake. Buck and Eddie meet trapped together.
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Bookmarked by Heliophile
04 Jul 2025
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“Christopher,” he says, and Christopher makes a little noise on the other end, like he’s hurt— “Christopher, what happened? Where are you?”
“School,” Christopher says, and there’s something odd about the way he’s breathing, a little hitch that isn’t usually there. Eddie’s hands are steady, still, when he types in the address. “Outside, at the—the front door. It fell.”
or, christopher calls 911. eddie picks up.
Bookmarked by Heliophile
15 Jun 2025
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Eddie on dispatch when Chris is the caller and Buck is with the 118 rescuers.
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“I'm gay.”
He's looking at his feet, because he hasn't quite come to terms with the fact that he's saying this in a room where other people, strangers, can hear it.
But this is still the first time he's said it this way: out loud, in a declarative sentence. Being nervous is fine. Frank said that being nervous is fine, and Buck just said he's proud, and the only thought Eddie has in his head is that it's embarrassing he can't raise his head and say it like a man, so clearly, he's going to need to hang on to other people's words for the time being, someone who isn't his dad trying to explain the ways Eddie's allowed to inhabit the world.
He doesn't need to ask anyone's permission to be who he is. That's also a thing Frank said.
in which eddie attends a self-empowerment group for gbtq men to supplement his therapy, and is empowered to: forgive himself, say "i'm gay" to his own reflection in the mirror, accidentally adopt an adult, make fried rice, and tell his straight best friend that he's in love with him. not necessarily in that order.