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this body will never be safe from harm by rosetterer
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
25 Aug 2023
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”You shouldn’t be here,” he whispers and begins to cry wholeheartedly into his pillow.
The fingers move away from his shoulder and make their way into his hair. Henry wants to do nothing more than to lean into the touch but the voice deep inside of his mind tells him that he doesn’t deserve it, and Henry doesn’t feel like fighting it today. He flinches away.
”Henry, baby…”
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Henry's depressive episode turns into something more serious.
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14 Dec 2025
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It’s not like I haven’t dated since Charlie and I ended things – or, to be more accurate, since Charlie ripped my heart into a thousand tiny pieces and scattered them into the street, where they promptly tumbled directly down the nearest drain.
That was a long time ago, though. I’m over it.
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Nick and Charlie are reunited after five years when Charlie moves back to Truham. Charlie is determined to correct the worst mistake of his life and get Nick back. Can they both put the past behind them and move forward together?
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05 Nov 2025
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how did we get here, how do we get out by inathingcalledlove
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
13 Aug 2023
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nick and charlie have been together for nearly 8 years.
nick and charlie have had the worst few months of their lives.
nick and charlie have broken up.how will they come back from this?
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02 Nov 2025
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I’m lost in this dream, I need you to hold me [I’m scared of lonely] by baletgir
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
25 Sep 2024
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His fingers hover over the keyboard. His chest tight; his thoughts muddled. The weight of everything—his responsibilities, his mistakes, his shattered resolve—presses down, suffocating. And then, before he can stop himself, the words spill out.
Alex Claremont-Diaz
August 25, 2020, 1:14 AMAlex
you dont have to say anything
but please lmk youre okayHenry
I can't do this.or;
Henry falls into a deep depression post-lake house. He responds to one of Alex's texts, a brief divergence from canon ensues.Series
- Part 3 of FirstPrince Canon Divergence
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28 Oct 2025
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Emails I Can't (Un)Send by shoreofwhitechalk
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
23 Sep 2024
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With trembling fingers, he clicks it. The article expands to swallow his entire screen, and the full headline slaps him across the face. PRINCE OF BROKEN HEARTS? INSIDE FIRST SON’S DEVASTATING EMAILS.
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28 Oct 2025
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my reflection through your eyes by headabovethewater
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
28 Oct 2023
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26. Mirror sex
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- Part 26 of Kinktober 2023
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27 Sep 2025
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a hurricane behind the door by headabovethewater
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
30 Nov 2023
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He’s never liked being in a crowded room with inebriated people and too little oxygen. Alex, however, craves it every now and then, and Henry wants more than anything for Alex to be happy. So, he’d given in and now here he is - seated at the bar with a lukewarm martini in his hand, as he watches people of all genders throw themselves at his partner.
His. Alex is his, darn it.
or, the one where Henry thinks he can't possibly be good enough for Alex because he doesn't have what girls have.
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- Part 1 of Jealous Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor
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17 Sep 2025
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The Night Might Be Doubled For Us by englandwouldfalljohn for tastethewaste
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
29 Mar 2024
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Election accomplished, Alex and Henry have flown to Cabo for a much-deserved rest. But when a bartender starts hitting on Alex, it strikes an insecurity in Henry. Fortunately, Alex's love runs deep...and he knows how to show it. (Read the tags *wink wink*)
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14 Sep 2025
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it's all in my head (i fuck up again and again) by theinvalidedsoldier
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
03 Sep 2025
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What if on that fateful day in Kensington Henry told Alex to leave, and Alex (for once in his life) did what he was told?
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05 Sep 2025
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stood on the cliffside screaming (give me a reason) by theprinceandagcd for shesfrmboston
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
29 Aug 2025
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Henry doesn't know how long he's been sitting on the cliffside.
Time moves differently when his mind is fighting itself.
Seconds take hours.
Hours take minutes.
And the minutes are fickle, haunted things—here and gone in a blink, in the slow drag of an inhale, in a single beat of an aching heart.
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- Part 13 of Dr. Alex's 1000 Subs Celebration
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30 Aug 2025
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17 Aug 2025
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“One more thing you should know,” Pez adds as Henry takes the invitation from him. “June Claremont-Diaz is coming.”
Henry freezes.
June Claremont-Diaz isn’t the problem. She’s a lovely girl, and her articles about their shelter openings have always been kind. Pez has invited her to each fundraiser since the Los Angeles shelters’ opening, and she’s attended every single one, happy to participate in the theme if she can get a good article out of it.
No, the problem isn’t June Claremont-Diaz. The problem is her brother.
Or, Henry and Pez’s new shelter is opening in Brooklyn, and Henry is determined to spend the entire night avoiding Alex, while Alex is determined to do the exact opposite of that.
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10 Aug 2025
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I'm a fire (and I'll keep your brittle heart warm) by theprinceandagcd for movetoheavens
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
25 Jul 2025
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And now, every year, Henry faces this day as best he can. He mourns. He remembers. He cherishes the memories that he has and the years he was given, scrolls through photo albums and lets himself cry over the loss he still feels. The absence he will always grieve. The void he will never quite fill.
It is a little different now.
For so long, Henry would wake up cold and alone, barricaded in the trenches of his sorrow. He would spend all day in bed, hiding from the world beneath his covers that blocked out any light. He would suffocate beneath the weight of his heartache.
Today, he wakes up shrouded in soft, gentle warmth. Today, he is not alone.
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- Part 12 of Dr. Alex's 1000 Subs Celebration
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27 Jul 2025
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Black Butterflies and Déjà Vu by Dreamer_Of_Ships
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
13 Jul 2025
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Nick and Charlie made it through their first year of long distance without any issues. Sure, it was hard, but they loved each other enough to continue putting in the effort, and somehow, they made it through.
Now, after a summer of romance, as Nicks starts his Second Year in Leeds and Charlie goes off to London for First Year, they're ready to pick up where they left off.
But when they are confronted with many more challenges, they must continue fighting for each other if they want to hold onto the love they found so young.
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14 Jul 2025
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Sunless Dusting Libraries by ItsMayBiTheWay
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
29 Jan 2024
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Henry should leave, he should wait until everyone is asleep and then silently leave, without a trace. As if he never existed in Alex's life, as if he never touched Alex's body, as if he never wanted only exist in his heart and mind.
Because that is what Alex deserves. Alex deserves someone who can love him out and proud, someone who is not shamed for his existence, someone as bright as him, not the pale starlight gleam Henry is.
But lying there on the pile of mattresses they piled together and called a bed- Henry can not even find it in himself to breathe, let alone get up and go. Betrayed by his own existence, once again.
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What-If taken by a depressive episode, Henry can not leave the lake house
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- Part 5 of RWRB What-If's
- Part 1 of Fights Worth Fighting For
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10 Jul 2025
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What To Expect by LoveMadameLuck
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
16 Feb 2025
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Alex passes out mid debate and is rushed to hospital.
Henry is across the globe.*Warning*
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22 Jun 2025
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i love you for all of this (and so much more) by a_very_pink_donut
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
29 Apr 2024
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“I’m sorry,” Henry mutters. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I get these preposterous ideas and then…” he wipes his eyes. “I know I should talk to you when I get in a certain way, but you’re always so busy and I don’t want to add to–”
“Henry, I swear to God, don’t you ever use that excuse again,” Alex says sternly. He moves his hands to cup Henry’s face, squishes his cheeks comically and bumps their foreheads together. “I am never too busy for you. Fuck work. The firm can fend for themselves when I’m not there. You’re always my priority. It’s you before literally anyone or anything else. You understand?”
Henry nods, feeling himself melt under Alex’s gaze.
“Say it,” Alex whispers.
“I understand,” Henry replies, and he does.
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or, Henry is having some negative thoughts about his body and Alex is a good husband.
*title from "i do not love you" by ron pope
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06 May 2025
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Smell is an interesting thing, as far as senses go. He learned in undergrad anatomy that it’s actually responsible in part for encoding memory, and it’s a powerful trigger for it. Alex has experienced this plenty of times; his mother’s perfume reminding him of their years in Texas, his father’s cigars. This time, with the smell of this room, Alex is hit square in the chest with the memory of short blonde strands of hair sliding between his fingers, a perfect mouth opening against his own, a smooth accent curving a dulcet voice that whispers into his ear. Alex is spinning suddenly, as though he’s in midair and falling, and the nostalgic feeling in his chest is replaced with something far more intense and less pleasant. Alex steps backwards suddenly out of the room and slams the door shut, his breath shuddering and fast, and he rakes his hands through his dark curls as he storms off down the hallway.
Alexander Claremont-Diaz returns to the White House the first day of his presidency, intent on carving a new future for America and laying the ghosts of the previous administration to rest. He stumbles on a ghost of his own, one that's never quite stopped haunting him since the summer of his mother's second campaign.
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03 May 2025
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I'm Fine With My Spite and My Tears (and my beer and my candles) by Megg1223
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
06 Mar 2022
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Henry leaves Alex at the lake house, but Alex doesn't storm Kensington. What happens when they see each other after three months? With the election right around the corner can Alex keep it together enough not to cause another international incident? Alex just needs to get through the night and then he can forget about the boy who broke his heart, but he's finding it increasingly difficult as the night goes on.
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19 Apr 2025
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Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye... by Diana_28_28_138
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
13 Dec 2023
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What happened Before Henry left the lakehouse?
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"Can you make love to me please..?"
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13 Apr 2025