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How old must Ben be by now, anyway—seventeen, eighteen? Sam can’t be sure, especially since Ben looks at least a few years older than his age, crazed grief carved deep into the sunken lines of his dirty face. How long’s it been since his last shower? They know nothing about his current living situation—whether he even has a stable one—because Ben, understandably, doesn’t seem too keen on providing any more detailed an account of his life than the vague and sweeping assault he made against Dean after first tracking the two of them to the outside entrance to the bunker.
“You thought you were protecting them by leaving them alone,” Sam offers.
“Alone and helpless. I thought I was doing them a favor. I told myself… but I don’t know, Sammy. This wasn’t for them. This was for me, my peace of mind.”
Series
- Part 2 of Dean Winchester's A+ Parenting
- Part 1 of Alternate Universes & Canon Divergence
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Ben doesn’t know anybody named Dean, even if he supposedly should. At least, he doesn’t think—but his body seems to know a lot of things his mind doesn’t, these days, in the way his pulse picks up and his hair all stands on end and gooseflesh stretches like spandex over his skin because of nothing: nothing he understands, anyway. His grief counselor tells him it’s most likely a trauma response, but Ben—no. Ben feels trauma in his bones most waking moments, feels it in his nightmares and in the minutes when he picks up the phone and calls Mom just to hear the message on her voicemail that hasn’t stopped playing yet. This isn’t trauma. He can tell the difference, by now.
Series
- Part 1 of Dean Winchester's A+ Parenting