chaoticdean
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Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak used to be inseparable. Not just high school best friends, but the kind of soul-deep, ride-or-die connection fueled through their mutual love for music that felt like it could outlast anything. Near the end of their senior year, though, something happened that irrevocably broke them apart.
Ten years later, Dean owns a cozy little record store in downtown Lawrence, Kansas, has a dog he'd die for, and hasn't seen or heard from Cas since graduation. He’s made peace with the silence. Or so he thinks, until a familiar figure moves into the long-vacant house across the street.
Castiel Novak has spent the last ten years flying standby and building a life he can live with. It's not glamorous, but it's stable: quiet nights, early flights, and a cat who doesn’t ask too many questions. When he moves back to his hometown to be closer to family, he’s not expecting the past to be waiting for him at the end of the driveway.
Especially not in the shape of Dean Winchester.
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Titled after lyrics from "Suzie Chapstick" by Green Day (x)
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Castiel Novak is 27 when he suddenly loses his twin brother Jimmy, and his whole world turns to ashes. How do you deal with losing half of yourself when your whole life always revolved around the two of you, like yin and yang and black and white? How do you deal with a broken soul and old demons looming over you with no one to hold you back anymore?
After 10 years as a Navy Special Warfare Operator and more than a dozen deployments in both Afghanistan and Iraq, a battlefield injury forces 28-year-old Chief Petty Officer Dean Winchester to choose between being stuck behind a desk for the rest of his career or going back to civil life. When he learns about his friend Jimmy’s death, Dean makes his way back to Kansas with his heart in his throat and broken pieces at his feet.
Things are already complicated and painful enough as it is, but when former lovers Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak meet again after 10 years of radio silence and a galaxy of wounds and scars solidly standing between them, it feels like both a curse and a blessing has been placed on them both. Is there any hope in putting back their broken pieces together after a decade, and how do you deal with grief and broken dreams?
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- Part 1 of Patient Love verse
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When Cas OD's, Jimmy decides that the only solution for his twin brother to quit using is that his family stays even closer together. But his plan is suddenly put in jeopardy when a guilt-stricken Dean decides to leave Lawrence to enlist in the US Navy, intending to become a Navy SEAL.
This time, though, Castiel follows him all the way to California once Dean is done with boot camp in Illinois, and then to Virginia where Petty Officer Winchester has to go through Green Team to earn his trident. When Dean is drafted to join Bravo Team, one of the most elite platoons of SEAL Team 6, neither he nor Cas knows what lies ahead.
Will they make it through deployments, loss, navigating injuries and PTSD? Can Castiel hold on to his shaky sobriety through it all? Or will the little white lies they keep from each other somehow make the life they’re building collapse around them?
TL;DR: what would’ve happened if the main plot that changed everything in Patient Love didn’t happen, and what would it mean for Dean and Cas and those they love?
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Titled after "Little White Lies" by Liam St. John
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- Part 6 of Patient Love verse
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What if after all is said and done, the Empty never takes Castiel away, and now all that's left for the Angel of the Lord is to face the music?
What if all that's left after beating Chuck is a whole world of opportunities, and nothing on the horizon to stop them?
What if after all is said and done, Dean and Cas settle in a relationship they both thought was out of their reach, never mind how much they both craved it?
The soft ending they deserved, and even more so: Freedom.
But it's never that simple... is it?
Titled after Zach Bryan's "Headin' South" (x)
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"Come on, let's make some little changes."
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The sun is up when Dean opens his eyes; for years and years, the skilled hunter inside of him had this habit of chasing the sunrise. Driving as fast as possible toward the next case, his little brother in the seat next to him and more often than not, an angel on the bench behind them.
It takes time to unpack four decades of habits- more than Dean could’ve imagined, actually.
But now though… Now is a bit of a different story.
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Dean Winchester is a Homicide Detective working in Kansas City. He loves his job, his husband, and his dog. It's 3am on a Friday night and he’s just been called to the scene of a violent rape and attempted murder outside a gay bar in town. When he arrives, he's met with a scene he never imagined he would encounter even in his wildest nightmares.
The victim is his husband, Castiel.
Was Castiel a target, or a random victim in the wrong place at the wrong time? And what was he doing in town in the middle of the night when Dean thought him asleep in bed?
When Castiel wakes from a coma with memory problems, Dean may never get his answers, and their relationship may be changed for good.
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"Every time I see your face,
I think of things unpure, unchaste.
I want to fuck you like a dog,
I'll take you home and make you like it."Cas Krushnic is the new kid in school from California with a terrible attitude and more than just physical scars.
Dean Winchester is the green-eyed quarterback who sits in front of him in precalculus every other day.
Cas knows what he wants, and has no qualms about taking it.
Dean has no idea what's gotten into him lately.A work of fiction in which few things are as they seem, a story of life after loss, and a love letter to the long and sometimes painful journey to self-acceptance.
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As a child, Castiel used to fall asleep with his mother telling him bedtime stories of the prophecy she had foreseen for him — how the Strawberry Moon would one day reveal the familiar he was destined to be with.
However, it’s been twelve years since the heart-wrenching day Castiel last saw the one he hoped was meant for him, and at twenty-eight, with his magic quickly dwindling, he knows better than to keep believing in such foolish dreams.
Castiel's resolve falters with the return of his long-ago teenage crush, Dean. The familiar’s evergreen eyes and rainbow aura are still as captivating, but his past is shrouded in mystery, one that could hold the answer to what drove them apart all those years ago.
Maybe the peculiar tabby cat who seems to have taken a liking to Castiel is what it takes to make Castiel believe in the moon with shades of pink again.
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“Jack’s missing,” his almost ex-husband speaks the words no parent ever wants to hear.
This is a story about two men that have fallen out of love but must come together to get their only child back.
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Dean Winchester has spent his whole life cleaning up his father's messes. Now that his little brother, Sam, is settled in California and Bobby's got a handle on the garage, they convinced Dean to finally do something for himself. After a chance encounter at the Air Force recruitment fair Sam dragged him to, Dean got hooked on air traffic control, and he gets stationed at Kansas City Tower for his final leg of training. There, he has to impress his on-job instructor Castiel Novak, the ex-Air Force captain who piqued his interest in ATC in the first place. (And only in ATC. He swears. Those blue eyes and dark hair and stupid hat have nothing to do with it.) If all that wasn't hard enough, just one week into his OJT, Dean gets a call telling him his father is dying and has to move back home to live out his final days-which could be more like years.
Dean has to decide whether to continue to let his life be defined by his father's mistakes and his misguided obligation to everyone else, or if he's brave enough-and strong enough-to find a life in his own shape.